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2005-12-02T07:10:00.000-08:00

chariskidz camp!

2005-12-01T07:09:00.000-08:00

i'm back from the chariskidz camp! and although i am totally bushed, i am so grateful it wasn't as stressful as last year. purely cause there were less kids.

anyway, everything went pretty well. hero's trail was a success (: and the dark room obstacle course turned out much better than planned. in fact it turned out to be a mini haunted house. credits to sam (: hahaha jaimie got pretty paranoid about that. but it was good fun (:

and then we slept in tents on the field again. haha and at first it was pretty hot but it got so extremely cold in the end which was just plain uncomfortable with added discomfort of the uneven grassy ground. and the kids this year was oh so roudy! like everyone fell asleep at 1-ish, 2am. and i got up at 4am and could hear people awake (maybe it was just minnie) which brings me to the very sad and unfourtante point that joy and i shared a tent with minnie :/ and she together with kimberly and jessica refused to sleep the entire night and when they finally did i found minnie at my feet. tsk woke up at 5-ish, 6 and saw the guys playing catching? i mean that is a rather unearthly hour to be doing that. plus they had already bathed before that. heard they woke up at 5 when they were only supposed to be up at 7. weird bunch they are.

well camp is over and i'll miss running after the kids, screaming at them to get to their seats and to keep quiet, gushing about ming dao with sharlene, getting high on "marker-sniffing" and most of all my NEW FOUND LOVE (which by the way does NOT overthrow ming dao's place) ahemahem JET LIM (: hahaha

i mean look at that face! (fine, it's kinda blur and i can't minimize it) how can anyone not love him (: haha well okay fine not a lot do. anyway despite his loud and extremely mischevious behaviour, his occasional cursing and his infamous reputation among his peers of being the "gay" guy cause he kissed his male friends in an attempt to irritate them. yes despite all that, is this cheeky 7 year old who smiles all the time, loves sitting on your lap and gives plenty of hugs! haha cute eh?

and as the final burst of smoke from the campfire drifted into the air came the end of camp meetings, hard to meet deadlines, endless shouting, mad rushing, countless trips up and down the stairs and plain slacking at the comfy red sofa. but all that plus more left me a life time of great memories (:

alright i am SOOOOO extremely tired and in a desperate need to crash on my bed and sleep till 5pm tomorrow.

alright goodbye
11 41pm

pre-camp!

2005-11-29T08:08:00.000-08:00

it's been another tiring night!

and to think my efforts were flushed down the drain cause irresponsible teacher's haven't sent in their most recent files for the camp. so my compilation is not recent enough. ah whatever i had time to burn anyway. haha

woke up at 11 today and i had to be in church at 11. i seriously have to stop doing this. you know waking up at exactly the same time i'm supposed to be somewhere else. anyway "helped" out with some last minute preperations for the camp with shar ethel and joel. like look for stuff and dig sand from the back "garden" of the sanctuary. that was just hilarious. haha. oh and we helped make the name tags! haha i got to use the cutter thing which i am very fascinated with. haha

haha oh and everytime we were about to leave, jaimie comes along and gives us something else to do :/ like make the relfection books. which are so pretty! i mean when you put them all together cause it's so colourful? okay that's just irrelevant. and then we went into the office to kope food. HAHA. then we sat on the red sofa and got high and we were disturbing soo chuan. and then soo chuan came out and we discussed about the christmas party! haha and then we finally left at 6. so that was about 6 or so hours in church. but i had fun! (: haha

alright i feel for cereal! (: and then i have to pack for camp tomorrow! exciting! hahaha but i remember how stressful last year's camp was that i couldn't take it by the afternoon of the second day. like how we couldn't sit down for a five minutes break. the only break you got was at night after all the kids are asleep. tsk

alright i'm off. oh yes i still havent uploaded my photos into imagestation. oh well. that will have to wait. haaha

goodbye
12 48am

tired :/

2005-11-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

gosh. i am so extremely drained out :/

its 0155 now and i just spent 5 hours straight compiling the chariskidz camp events for jaimie. 5hours! man you can pretty much guess how tired i am. but i'm quite satisfied with what i've done. hah i should be after 5hours.

anyway i woke up at 10 today and rushed to suntec to meet michelle and zakiah. we had to look for tennis shirts for the school team cause prince can't sponsor us our shirts anymore cause some greedy school ordered over a hundred pieces of size small. so coach said that if we wanted adidas he could get it for us 40 percent off. so we searched for an adidas top and skirt noted down its number code and went to watch a movie! haha we watched prime which is just average. and the theatre was only 1/4 full. haha that was quite fun.

mrt-ed home and went over to lulu's. we took LOADS of pictures like with both her camera and my camera so we have twice the amount of photos with pretty much the same thing. haha then we went to the park to take MORE photos. hahaha self obsessed us. haha but it was fun (:

oh then she came over and brought over these set of wheels she bought from china that you attach to the back of your shoe and you can roll around? hahaha and i took out my heeleys haha which suprisingly still fit. so we had fun there (: haha

oh i had the ultimate treat today! i had my vanilla frapp and ben and jerry's cookie dough today! ooohh i taste heaven! but sadly i'm broke.

might be missing training to go to church tomorrow to finalise some children church camp stuff with jaimie and probably at the same time help make the name tags for the camp.

haha camp on wednesday and thursday! haha FUN! but i remember how tired i was last year. that part isn't very fun :/

ohohoh! i watched the last episode of wang zi bian qing wa AGAIN last night! haha ((:

alright i shall end with this

meet gorgeous (: my new found love, MING DAO (:
it isn't clear cause of my blog skin but please see how HOT he is! hahahaha (:

HOME!!

2005-11-27T23:33:00.000-08:00

I'M HOME! I'M HOME! I'M HOME! I'M HOME!

singapore never looked this beautiful, and home never felt so comfortable (:

as i said australia taught me a lot. the grass ain't always greener on the other side. and what naive perceptions i had. it had always been my dream to migrate to australia or even the states. things just looked finer, the air seemed sweeter, the stars brighter. and i'm not saying that it isn't beautiful now and i would still love to move there. but if singapore is where my family, my church and my friends are, then that is where i'll be.

the trip was fun, in a weird kinda way. but it did mark one of my lowest points though. i felt so demoralized there. my mother, my sister, everyone, seemed to find joy in criticizing me, getting angry with me and my mother telling me how hopeless i am. i could have handled it better, but there was no one there to talk to. no one who understood. yeah, i felt so lost. and just like that i broke down. but the up side was it drew me closer to God. so much closer (:

alright enough of the melancholy. i just needed to get it all out

today was pretty much a mad rush. woke up at 7 and it was pouring. so it was extremely cold. rushed about and sissy's friend, carol, drove us to hillsongs church outlet. it was simple and nice. their congregation size is about three times as big as my church :/ yeah we went for the first service but missed the praise and worship. so stayed on for the praise and worship of the second service. but their services are really short. like an hour each time and they have a lot of services all through the day. but sadly, the services we went for were for the "older" congregation. so no such luck of re-living FOP. but i heard the youth service was rocking. haha too bad i couldn't go for it. it was really heart warming seeing sissy and momma being refreshed by the power of God. (:

watched christmas with the kranks, little manhattan and a bollywood film no entry on the plane. which coincidentally was recommended by one of the cab drivers of the cab we took just yesterday. little manhattan was nice! like really sweet! haha it was about a ten year old boy and his first love. haha then i spent the remainding one hour browsing through various cd's. black eyed peas, jason marz, gorillaz, 3 doors down, so on and so forth. SQ is great yeah? haha

i think i put on a lot of weight. like A LOT. i'll probably tip the weighing scales :/ DIET! EXERCISE!

alright, i have about a hundred and eighty pictures i took on the trip which i will upload tomorrow (:

i shall go now and crash in my bed which i miss so very much. and catch up on some tv watching or something!

it feels great to be back (:

one more day

2005-11-26T20:39:00.000-08:00

hello once again. thankfully this would most probably be my last post here in the land of kangaroos. and boy am i glad! (:

anyway last night was erm interesting? actually not really. followed sissy to her uni which was HUGE. but we didn't stay long. instead the motherness and i went to the mall nearby and got some stuff. actually i didn't get anything cause she wouldn't let me. was kinda irritated by that cause my brother got way expensive bilabong board shorts (thank me (: hahaha) and then sissy came along and got a almost as expensive roxy bag and i got nothing. and it wasn't because i didn't want anything. tsk oh well

so left for home in a huff. tsk what's new with me? haha dinner was at some vietnamese restaurant in new town, which was pretty good. and then we got home and sissy ella and i watched a bollywood movie. and it was soooooo extremely funny yet sad. it is so good. sadly i can't really remember the title. but i heard that it was so good that it won every possible award at the bollywood awards thingamajig.

got about 2hours of sleep and got up at 6 bloody am. when do i wake up at that time when i don't have school?! anyway got dressed and everything and the coach came to pick us (sissy momma and i) up to get us to the blue mountains which is really really pretty! and it's so cold! i got pretty pictures (: hahaha oh yes before that we went to some wildlife centre thingy and we got to pat kangaroos and STAND next to koala bears. you couldn't carry them cause they would get STRESSED. hahaha adorable. but it was raining so to literally put it, rained on our parade. haha but the weather picked up on the trip to blue mountains so we got really scorching hot weather in the end. then we had lunch and then we had like 15minutes or less to go to the shop downstairs which was a surf shop! and you can't drag me away from a surf shop! i'll want EVERYTHING. tsk. hahaha so to make up for not getting me anything the previous day, i bought billabong slippers, waterbottle and a roxy cap. haha then with my own money i bought a roxy pencil case which is so cheap! and funky! the back of it is tiger stripped pink and black. wooh! hahaha (: and i didn't have to say anything but the motherness noticed that retail therapy makes me a very happy person (:

took a ferry back which was loads better than the one i took before the other time with sissy and ella. this one was so smooth and the wind was so strong and cold! nice (:

alighted at darling harbour and whilst sissy and momma walked home i rushed to harbourside mall's giordano to get the mini jacket thing which i'm pretty sure singapore doesn't have cause the giordano here is pretty different like the cut and material differs a little. haha

dinner was at khosh. which by it's name you can pretty much guess it's standards. khosh, posh? get it? hahaha alright it was just modern and not five star quality. but it was nice. too bad the camera's battery died so no pictures for that. oh but the iced chocolate and tiramisu is FANTASTIC! and then sissy went off to work and the momma and i walked around a little bit. and it's raining. no it isn't. it pours for five minutes and stops. then there is a mad thunderstorm for another five minutes and stops. this is crazy sydney weather for you. hah

so it's saturday so the shops are open a little later today. and i found this internet cafe which charges a dollar an hour. i feel so extremely ripped off at the convenience store. curses. but i kind understand why it's a dollar. cause the computer is so SLOW. so i dragged the momma in and we each got a coputer to waste our time on. typical. haha

alright hillsongs church tomorrow. holler a minute. it's only the outlet of hillsongs church. the so called original one is an hour or so away. bummer :/ and then at 10 30am i'll be at the airport and HOME SWEET HOME BABY! australia has let me experience so much. okay not really but more about that when i get home to my own computer which works faster than this one.

i'm coming back home! haha i'm singing michael buble's home in my head. HAHA (: random :/

goodbye!
11 39pm (aussie)
8 39pm (SINAPORE)

back again. sigh

2005-11-24T20:48:00.000-08:00

[edit]

yes it's me again. i'm beggining to get bored with the internet but then again what else can i do?

it's 11 35pm here in sydney and the internet cafe down the street closes at 10pm. so that means that i had to find another internet cafe. and that i did. after dinner (more about that later) i got bored (as usual) and i refused to get into bed or read or watch the telly so i got my things together got some directions from sissy, but the directions she gave were to liverpool street and that is WAY far. so she told me to take the harbour bridge to george street. and so i walked and walked and it was blocks away. pretty far but now i know where all the stores are and all that. so it was about a 20minutes walk. and everyone on the streets were all dressed to go clubbing and all that. so i walked and found another 2 starbucks in the process (: then i saw THE LIGHT! not literally. haha. i found an internet cafe! and it's where i am now and it's in the basement of some side stall and it's rather big but kinda sleazy. BUT it's half the price i pay at the internet cafe back at pyrmont. i feel so ripped off :/ and there are all sorts of people here. but mainly gamers who keep cursing really loudly. its quite funny really. haha

okay i'm being long winded, but i can't think of anything else to do but blog.

anyway i didn't go to paddy's cause my momma was being a bum and refused to leave the house. so at 8 sissy momma and i cabbed down to stanely street and had dinner at trovata with sissy's best friends(and so she claims) loui and sam. really nice people. easy to get along with and the best thing? they're gay partners. hahaha cool eh?

alright i'm getting a little sleepy. better leave for home before i get to lazy to walk back and decide to sleep on a street bench :/

goodbye once again (:
11 48 (australia)
8 48 (singapore)

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back again :/

2005-11-24T11:48:00.000-08:00

yes i do not have a life. hah sue me

2 35pm in aussie land and its so hot today. like 21degrees. anyway i got up pretty early today. like 9-ish 10 australia time? and then me being a bum, i stayed in bed and read for an hour before i got my lazy ass out of bed. went shopping alone at the mall nearby and bought loads of candy. like LOADS of it. and it's so expensive. like i went to the candy store. and they sell all sorts of candy in all sorts of flavours and they have it in these HUGE containers and its so colourful and it just makes your mouth water at the sight of all the candy! anyway i bought chewy toffe bon bon's which are really really good. but its 3.95 for a 100grams and that is really pricy. and i bought assorted toffes which i have decided to munch on already and i got eclairs, caramels, sour SNORT bubblegum which i found hilarious and starburst jelly beans which are soooooooo good. and i'm bringing it all back to hot ol'singapore to share with erm. people. haha so i won't grow fat alone (:

dinner was at oscar's last night. and it's this rather nice restaurant that plays mtv on their flat screen tv located all around their restaurant. i had steak which was well done instead of medium rare so that was a little hard to eat. but it was good none the less.

speaking of food, i'm famished. and brilliant me found a starbucks on pitt street! so if i have the time later on i shall go treat myself to a nice cold vanilla frapp on a hot thursday afternoon. (:

to paddy's night market tonight. i hope. i just found out today that the skirt i bought at paddy's is a whole 10bucks cheaper than in the stores! so look whose going shopping tonight! (:

i feel so fat :/ all i do is eat and sleep and eat somemore. i'll lose it back in singapore. sad excuse eh?

haha alright. hunger overwhelms me. i need to find some FOOD!
goodbye (:
2 48pm (aussie land)
11 48am (singapore)

boring ol' town

2005-11-23T15:34:00.000-08:00

yes it's me again. seriously i have THIS much time to spare. its so boring here :/ sissy's studying and momma always golfing. tsk

alright the silly pineapple tagged me back. tsk so here goes nothing.

RULES OF THE GAME:
1. post five weird/random stuffs about yourself
2. at the end of your post, list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this
3. leave a comment "you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules

1. I hate it when people assume stuff about me. It really irritates me to the core.
2. I am very protective over my family and friends.
3. I am the biggest bum the world has ever had. :/
4. I procrastinate a lot.
5. I always spend money i don't have. if you get what i mean (:

and the five people are
ellie, pear, fad, nic and stacey(:

about today. woke up late. as usual but it would be pretty early if in singapore but that's not the point. got dressed and went to the chinese grocers with my mum for about an hour. grabbed 3 basketful of stuff. all for sissy. tsk. came back and it was about five. lazed around and then i finally got so bored i came to the store to use the internet.

will be going to the mall nearby later for dinner. probably just the momma and i. yes and this is australia for you. tsk i'm bored to my toes. sheesh

alright and i should go now.
farethewell
6 34pm (aussie land)
3 34pm (singapore)

another day in aussie

2005-11-22T16:53:00.000-08:00

and here i am again. it seems like it's going to be a routine. you know, me burning five aussie bucks for an hour in the cyber world. it pretty much shows how much time i have.

so its me in the crammed up booth with a packet of starburst fruit chews infront of me to munch on. and i spent 3 aussie bucks on that. insanity. it's actually just like fruitella. tsk what a waste of money.

woke up pretty late today. and after i showered, sissy, ella and i went on a little "adventure". hopped on a bus which we pretty much had no idea where it was headed to and ended up in circular quay where we got kebab's and donuts for lunch. then we spent 9.80 on ferry tickets and got on a ferry to some place i can't remember the name of. we got to this amusment park with really fancy rides but unforunately we got there at six. just as it was closing. so we walked around a little bit more and got back on a ferry to darling harbour and we took a walk back to pyrmont. so ella and sissy headed back home and here i am. oh and it was MAD HOT today. like really really hot. and the ferry made me sea sick and up till now i feel like puking. tsk

last night was interesting. like we went to soup plus for dinner and it's really cosy and like dark and they have a jazz band there with saxophones, trumpets, piano and all. and they served this massive bowls of soup with complimentary bread. really good food.

alright it's about time for dinner. better head on home. don't know about dinner plans for tonight but my head's still spinning from the ferry ride.

BONDAI BEACH tomorrow! it's gonna be fuuuuun! hah (:

oh yes i should do that thing now before i forget.

RULES OF THE GAME:
1. post five weird/random stuffs about yourself
2. at the end of your post, list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this
3. leave a comment "you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules

1. i live breathe and survive on ben and jerry's and starbucks vanilla and mango frap's.
2. i get headaches really easily. and i mean REALLY easily and all the time.
3. i think ashton kutcher, adam brody, andy roddick and ming dao are drop dead gorgeous and woooh HOT STUFF (:
4. whenever i listen to a new song, and i really love it, i'll listen to it for days and i'll only listen to that song and that song alone.
5. i am one heck of a materialistic and brand concious person.

and the five lucky people are...
apple, lulu, kor, debbie and vicki (:

oh yes, DEBBIE i can't remember you're blog addy so yeah (:

and that's all folks
goodbye
7 53pm (aussie land)
4 53pm (singapore)

home?

2005-11-20T15:32:00.000-08:00

good day (: hahahahaha

i'm seated in a cybercafe cum convenience store where the computer terminals are so crammed up it's difficult to type.

the plane ride was fab. got three seats from the window all to myself and another for the momma all to herself too. watched wedding crashers and charlie and the chocolate factory. haha

saturday afternoon was bloody hot but it got oh so chilly at night. and everyday after seems to be rather cold but its really nice.

past two days have been terrible! cause sissy is supposedly studying for her exams we don't do much. and cause there is a three hour time difference i find myself always glancing at my watch (still timed to singapore's time) and wondering what i'll be doing if i was in singapore. pathethic eh? but i really miss home. miss church, my friends, my brother, my room, my computer the internet and my bed. yes my bed cause now i share a bed with my mum and at night, she ends up sleeping slanted and takes up 3 quarters of the bed.

been up and around town. bought a skirt and a pair of shorts at paddy's market which is this really big "market" with so much nice stuff you'll go mad. hah but i'm kinda low on cash. :/

oh and something random to add to my already really random post is that the ending of wang zi bian qing wa was fantastic! really sweet. yes peck, MING DAO (:

alright i better hurry off home. rather my sister's home which is this really cosy house which she shares with two other girls who are really nice. and the weather is so good that you just leave the windows open a little and it acts exactly like an airconditioner.

oh yes i really really should go on home now (: dinner would be at this soup restaurant with funky jazz music and all that.

alright goodbye (:
3 32 pm (singapore)
6 32pm (sydney)

ps. hey stacey (: will do that thingy the next time i come online which would be pretty soon(:

frog prince

2005-11-18T20:06:00.000-08:00

okay my last post before i leave for aussie land (:

went to tampines mall today. was supposed to get the heels from charles and keith for my sister but they didnt have her size so too bad. haha got batteries, magazines and the billabong handphone strap for the camera and and and the WANG ZI BIAN QING WA soundtrack (: though i am cashless now it makes me very happy! haha (: yes i am obsessed with that show and ahem MING DAO (:

and i have one more disc. just ONE more disc till i finish the whole show. so i'm gonna watch it in awhile (:

my bag is extremely heavy :/ and i brought like 4 different pairs of shoes. okay not shoes, footwear. oh well i'm gonna watch the last disc now and then i'll be rushing like a crazy fool after.

goodbye people (:
i'll try blogging in the land of kangaroos and koala bears (:

day before aussie (:

2005-11-17T23:59:00.000-08:00

its 0103 now and i'm still feeling sick and headache-ish. fwwaaahh

today was a really busy day. woke up at 0930 to message the motherness that something was wrong with the camera's sd card. tried locking, unlocking and removing the battery as instructed by her but nothing worked. went back to sleep straight after with the intention of getting up at 12 but that kinda got delayed to 1pm. the motherness came to pick me up and we left for keppel bay tower which is where canon is located in hopes of getting the camera fixed. and suprisingly it wasn't the sd card that was spoilt but the camera. so they loaned us a camera in the mean time. but its ahbeng gold :/

went to some rather empty hawker for lunch before leaving for geylang serai to get some stuff to bring over to aussie land to my sister. to parkway after to get sissy's earphones and finally we left for home.

reached home at 5 55pm and less than five minutes after i got home tara called and asked if i was free to catch harry potter with her at marina square cause she had free tickets. show was at 6 30pm so i had to rush like crazy. got the fatherness to fetch me there. the theatre was packed! and with every movie ticket you were given a cupon to redeem a free drink and popcorn or nachos. and at the entrance of the theatre you had to redeem the free harry potter sticker book thing :/ but it's quite nice larh huh. so tara kim rory nicole and i piled into the cinema and sadly we had to sit right infront. but harry potter was fantastic! a little draggy and somewhat dry at times but overall i think it was really well produced. (:

and then i came home to pack and i practically stuffed my whole cupboard full of clothes into my tiny suitcase. and after about 3hours i'm still not done packing. and i have that weird feeling that i'm forgetting to bring something. oh well

oh yes. auntie anna came by today and gave sissy THAT adidas jacket. like the one i want! the one i've been eyeing! the one that i can't afford! hahaha oh well. at least she said she'll get it for me when i get back ((: the privellages of having an auntie whose job deals with such brands (:

haha okay i'm gonna continue watching wang zi bian qing wa. hopefully i can finish it before i leave for australia. haha

will try blogging tomorrow (:
goodbye

canon ixus i zoom. YEAH BABY!

2005-11-16T23:29:00.000-08:00

this terrible and extremely unbearable headache just won't leave me. and ben and jerry's unlike previous times, only provides temporary relif. and usually i can just sleep it off but that doesn't seem to work either. tsk

woke up at around 10 30-ish to go to church with the brotherness to learn the chariskidz christmas dance steps, together with evonne. left for school at 12 50pm.

the whole foyer was transformed into the "you hua jiu shuo" set. waited for over two hours for who knows what and finally went "on-set" and squeezed onto these really uncomfortable benches. and then we waited somemore. then finally they began and about an hour later it started getting really hot and stuffy and being wedged in between each other with all that human heat didn't help. at all. and the people from the "older generation" side spoke such long speeches which was pure gibberish to my ears. and for once i was so happy when they said they'll go into a "commercial break" hah and after the filming of that the female superhost people came and attempted to host the show which was just hilarious. so at the end of the day it was quite a rewarding experience dispite the heat, intense hunger and what have you. (: oh yes and that taiwan host guy xu nai ling was there. hah. okay that was random :/ but he's super funny. haha

cabbed home and was so hungry i pigged out on prata and finished a quarter pint of my ben and jerry's. and an hour later i had macaroni and then two sausages. i have put on twice three times the amount of calories i burned off in the gym. tsk

i'm ponning training tomorrow. cause i need to pack for aussie land. okay that's just a small part of the plan. i'm just lazy and erm sick. (:

oh yes! the motherness bought a camera today! CANON IXUS I ZOOM! hah! now i don't have to drag the pineapple to harvy norman every time just to stare at it. oh the JOY (:

alright. its back to wang zi bian qing wa! disc 13 here i come! haha and i wanna watch harry potter before i leave! ughh but i have a feeling tickets are going to be or are already sold out. oh well

okay goodbye (:

migrane! !@#$%^

2005-11-15T21:31:00.000-08:00

have a headache and a migrane. yes i know it seems like the same thing but it isn't. haha. and i feel kinda weird. like i'm hungry but i don't have the appetite to eat? how ironic. haha

managed to get up to go the gym at tanah merah country club yesterday. so while the motherness had her qi gong class i sat down and had a bacon egg and toast breakfast. which turned out to be brunch. "worked out" in the gym for about an hour before going to tampines mall where i got a skirt (: haha

woke up pretty early today. like 9am! and i spent one hour starring at the math intensive tuition timetable and contemplating if i should go for that or training. in the end i went for training. only cause we were having a friendly with sac. tsk

matches were quite alright. but sadly had no motivation to play. haha

alright my head hurts! BUT ben and jerry's will make it all better! haha (:

alright its back to watching wang zi bian qing wa. i'm SLOWLY savouring every moment of the show and am currently on disc 9 :/ haha

goodbye

frustration

2005-11-13T23:59:00.000-08:00

and i'm back to blog.

yesterday was pretty fun but i'm too lazy to blog about it (:

today wasn't as eventful. had insomia this morning and ended up sleeping a little past 5 am. managed about two hours of sleep before i had to get up for church. suprisingly wasn't that tired throughout service.

shared bread with nic for lunch then came back to church for a very long camp meeting where i almost fell asleep at the end. but jaimie gives good massages (: haha

slacked around in church. wanted to go for a movie but realised how broke i was. so came back and my maid wasn't home yet. stood outside for TWO freaking hours in bloody heels. was outside from 5pm to 7? and it was so bloody hot. and lulu didn't pick up her phone so i couldn't go over. and finally when my maid did come back she gave me attitude and made it all seem like it was perfectly normal for me to wait for her to get back. domestic help these days. tsk

alright will have to go edit the chariskidz camp games thing which i was supposed to send in aeons ago. and after that i'm gonna continue watchin wang zi bian qing wa which is hilarious (:

to the gym tomorrow (if i get up on time) cause i'm feeling fat again. i have this sudden urge to go rollerblading. anybody?

goodbye

mini bbq (:

2005-11-11T23:59:00.000-08:00

its 0140 and since there is no one talk-able on msn and i'm waiting for the heater to heat up i shall blog (:

slept at 6 am again last night. no this morning. was watching raising helen which in my opinion is a good show (: got up at 2 and cabbed to church to meet evonne and linette to get the chariskidz christmas performance action thingy done. left at 4-ish to meet vicki and her sister fiona at siglap macs. had mcflurry for my 1st "meal".

came home and had a mini bbq. food was rather good. haha so it lasted till past 11 where everyone came and crashed in my room. to marhaba after for teh tarik (:

and then i'm home (:

alrighty then. it's a nice cold shower before i begin my wang zi bian qing wa "journey". be jealous. hahahaha(:

faretheewell (:

hanging on

2005-11-10T20:30:00.000-08:00

i feel so very accomplished today. well for waking up at 12 when i slept at 6 (:

lunch at parkway with pineapple. shrooms burger and honey milk tea which tasted kinda weird. left for training at 3pm and was "unfortunately" 20minutes late. played for less than an hour before thunder roared and lightning flashed. was extremely scary! stopped just in time before it rained cats and dogs chickens and ducks. tsk then we tried to look busy and discussed the tennis banner and tennis tee. so that saved us half an hour of physical. physical was made up of 3minutes doing the step thingy and 300 jumping jacks which killed me instantly. coach still thinks i'm WEAK. tsk what's new. friendly with SAC next tuesday. hah

to parkway AGAIN after training with the pineapple AGAIN. and with my "AMAZING" speaking skills i managed to coax a very kind and rather blur taxi driver to give us a lift from the 16bus stop to parkway, cause it was still raining. (: okay so it was just 2minutes away. haha

felt so tortured after physical i treated myself to a vanilla frapp at starbucks. HEAVEN (:

met the fatherness there for dinner and then i bought the whole wang zi bian qing wa series before feeling extremely exhausted and returned home.

oh yes. went "job hunting" with the pineapple at parkway today. apparently the whole of parkway is hiring. but it seems that there isn't space for a 14 year old. am i that young?! tsk i still need a JOB. :/

okay it's telly, dvd player and clarissa bonding time now (:

goodbye my fellow earthlings (:

little black books

2005-11-09T23:21:00.000-08:00

woke up really late today. actually i woke up at 12, switched on the telly and went back to sleep till erm 5 30. hahaha hey i slept at 5am okay! haha

watched little black book last night instead of raising helen. wasn't as nice as i expected it to be. they would probably lose the viewer at the beggining. so yes. the only interesting thing was it isn't very stereotypical.

went to tampines mall today with the motherness who has thankfully finally decided to act like my mother. dinner at coffebean where i had my vanilla ice blended as usual (: shopped for the stuff my sister instructed us to get. i mean things to bring over to aussie land for her. hah the motherness refused to buy anything for me and had something critical so say about everything i wanted. but i still managed to get a skirt. so that's not so bad. haha

training tomorrow! let's hope i get up on time :/

goodbye

reminiscing the past

2005-11-08T22:04:00.000-08:00

just finished reading my previous blog entries which dates back to june last year. haha the posts brought back such sweet nostalgia. entries about christmas, church camps, my first day of being a secondary 2 student, the march rally and the times when nic used to invade my blog. hahaha those were the days (:

woke up at 2pm today :/ what's new? tsk. decided that i didn't want to go for training. more telly watching as i munched on bread which ended up as brunch. was really bored so i gathered all my clothes from downstairs and brought them up to my room. chucked all my sisters old clothes away and at the same time found clothes i've been searching for but have given up looking. wanted to colour co-ordinate my clothes but figured that it could get quite confusing. so i type co-ordinated it. tees, tank tops and what have you. didn't take me very long cause i don't have much clothes :/ haha

dinner after with the fatherness at pizza hut. lasagne for me (: returned my dvd's and got new ones. came back and watched ice princess which i thought would be really kiddy and wouldn't have watched it if i hadn't seen the trailer. so yes it was rather nice and inspirational in some weird kinda way.

alright i'm off to watch raising helen (:
goodbye

someone's watching over me

2005-11-07T23:59:00.000-08:00

for the first time in a long while a monday didn't suck (:

woke up at 12pm today. quite an accomplishment i must say. another day with my best friend the telly. got my intestines working over prata for brunch. more telly till i finally got my ass out of bed and got ready to meet tara at tampines mall. was supposed to meet her at 3 30pm but somehow i was still home then. thank goodness she was late too. reached tm at around 4 20pm. hah

we were supposed to be shopping for presents but in the end we landed up at ya kun where tara had kaya toast and we both drowned ourselves in HER math homework. tsk. obviously we didn t get much done and i am now positive that whatever i have learnt over the year has "mysteriously" disappeared. evaporated. dissolved. or has been made into energy to digest the large amounts of food i have been consuming. i'm guessing it's the last option. anyway she had to leave at 5 for tuition but since i was out and i wanted to make the best of it i decided to aimlessly walk around tampines mall. of course i didn't plan to walk around aimlessly, it just turned out that way.

anyway got myself three tops from giordano cause that was the most reasonably priced item rather items and i was feeling particularly broke and splurging on something expensive did not seem logical. so yes with my purchases in hand i left for home.

stopped over at cheers cause i was being greedy again. and damn cheers for having a discount on ben and jerry's. so there went 9.50 on a pint of chocolate chip cookie dough which i savoured during project runway.

so yes my telly and i bonded a lot today and this holidays will continue to draw us closer together. tsk

and it just occured to me that i have homework. homework that you cannot run away from like those ridiculous worksheets they used to give. shall get them done erm soon. but first i've got to find it! though i don't really know what i'm looking for :/

training tomorrow which i'm guessing i will miss. not only because i would probably wake up when it ends. and that may not neccessarily be an exaggeration. and apart from the fact that i need the exercise it shall have to wait till thursday. or maybe next week. HAH i'm not being very responsible i know. ignoring the fact that i've been trying to psych people to skip training too. tsk

alright i'm off.
goodbye (:

to peck and fad: i doubt i'm appealing. 3/6 seems too competitive for my own good. haha you two have fun there. hahahaha (:

things can never be the same

2005-11-06T21:34:00.000-08:00

today was rather slackish but fun (:

slept at 4am and woke up at 7am though the rain just made my bed so inviting. got up anyway and got to church rather on time today (: chariskidz was as per normal. carrot cake for breakfast and being the first sunday of the month there was a birthday cake for the kids and apparently the rest saved me a slice so yes. it was nice cake. haha

was very distracted by everything during service today. keeping awake was such a chore and i could hardly breathe thanks to the two smokers in front. tried everything but still fell asleep. tsk.

choir auditions after. seriously it's not an audition. it just to see which section you're in. hah
chariskidz camp planning straight after. as usual got really distracted and was extremely sleepy. sheesh

lazed around church after. sat at the comfy couch to talk and joke till my sides ached. hah

crashed the ursheres gathering after. hah! it was at changi rise which is really pretty! (: food was amazing! ate a lot. like really A LOT. haha games were really hilarious!

got a ride back from hans and tadaah here i am (:

alright was just blogging to get my lazy fingers moving!
goodbye

faith

2005-11-05T23:59:00.000-08:00

yesterday was just too much to handle.

tara called at 9 to tell me i got into 3/5. which is the first double science class. first reaction? shit. and of course all i wanted to do was get to school to get the appeal letter. but noooo. the house experienced a black out a couple of hours ago cause of the thunderstorm. and so the motherness refused to leave the house before the electrician came. yes i have a very supportive mother. tsk. so at 1045 she still wouldnt leave the house even though the fatherness was home and speaking to the electricians, making her presence kinda redundant. obviously by then i was frustrated, irritated and what have you. not to mention i had to meet joy and evonne at 11. and the motherness noticed my frustration and instead of feeling guilty of the fact that we were supposed to leave at 9 she screamed at me that if i wasnt happy i could leave first. which i did. and then she continued screaming at me and my father. whom she was actually just complaining about me. five minutes later she calls and asks "where the fxxx i am" and unfortunately i was waiting for a cab. which she obviously had to use to spite me. so the whole ride from home to school was used to scream at me with her hands flaring into the air. i was actually more afraid of dying then being screamed at. by the time i reached school she probably scolded me for everything you could think of. and i didn't say anything. hah. fancy walking into school tearing even before you seen your results. i still think i have a very supportive mother. but seriously i'm not angry at her. just more hurt. like the fact she said i didn't care about my family. she has no idea how much i care. no idea at all.
re-confirmed my classes and tara and i are in the same class (: might not be opting cause i don't really erm adore the people in 3/6 and 3/5 seems like a friendly class with good people. haha might as well make the remainder of my kc life pleasent.

rushed to joy's after. spent about four hours there and got the ice breakers done. :/ and its not like that's very difficult to plan. hah went back to school at 2 to meet tara. and together with angeline we went to kcp for lunch. which was cheap and good (: parkway after cause tara had to meet manfred. so yes the three of us cabbed to marina square to catch sky high. which was really corny in the beggining but overall it's quite good. haha came back and slept from about 8 to 2pm the next day. of course i woke up occasionally for about five minutes each time. but i know i rock! (: haha

church today was quite alright. apart from the fact i got really bad cramps halfway through. but dinner took it all away (: haha

to coffebean after where the older ones had bs and the rest of us just sat on the comfy red couch (: had pure vanilla ice blended. which satisfies my vanilla craving. been craving for a vanilla frapp the whole week. and even dreamt of it last night. tsk. but a vanilla ice blended is just as good (: had a rather insightful talk after. i'm looking forward to praise and worship tomorrow. haha

alright this has been a very detailed post. and for the record. my mother still isn't speaking to me even though i smsed an apology to her. she even rejected my calls. tsssskkkkk
now you see where i get my genes from eh?

alright chariskidz tomorrow. goodbye (:

optimism

2005-11-03T23:10:00.000-08:00

okay this time i'm really EXHAUSTED

woke up this morning at 11am. and i was supposed to be at jurong east at? 11am. i am brilliant i know. called the fatherness down to give me a lift there whilst i dashed around the house like a mad fool. got there in 43minutes flat. not bad eh? hahaha

ice skated in an annoyingly crowded rink. which also experienced a tiny crack in the ice, spilling out a lot of blue liquid. but overall it was pretty fun. especially when they release foam onto the rink.

left at 3 with evo and joy for parkway where we met a few others at McCafe to plan for the camp. was a 2hour long meeting!

went home before leaving for a very yummy steamboat! and then i'm home! (:

oh yes i watched guess who last night! it is incredibly funny! and ASHTON KUTCHER in it is a bonus! ((:

alright results released tomorrow. wish me luck :/
also planning for the camp again tomorrow. this time it's just evo joy and i.

goodbye (:

SHOP

2005-11-02T21:35:00.000-08:00

I"M EXHAUSTED. haha okay not really

went to rent some shows last night. watched the pacifier and the prince and me. the prince and me was a little draggy. storyline was way too simple. oh yes and i rented guess who. cause ASHTON KUTCHER is in it. HAHA (:

woke up to the pineapple s call today. which was at 1pm. and i was supposed to meet her at well. 1pm. oh well. went to suntec and i had ben and jerry's AGAIN. cabbed to eunos tech park which was a whooping 10bucks. but it wasnt so bad since we split it both ways. haha. had ban mian for late lunch and early dinner then played tennis! focused a lot on my forehand strokes and service on the right side. didn't play as terribly as i expected. wanted to go for csc training but felt i wasn't ready for that. YET. so instead i went to parkway. met the fatherness there. bought another two tops and one bottom (: wanted to get charles and keith flats but noooo they didn't have any sizes. which was good. save money (: haha

i think i ve been spending a lot of money recently. the effects of not shopping for so long. okay i ban myself from buying anything else. okay maybe ONE more top or skirt. haha and i'm saving up for that extremely fantabulous creative speakers. which is a neccessity. haha and that white adidas jacket! (: christmas is coming. HINTHINT

alright i'm off! haha shopping makes me happy. RETAIL THERAPY (:
ice skating at jurong followed by chariskidz camp planning tomorrow!

trust in the lord

2005-11-01T19:23:00.000-08:00

it's the beggining of the month and i'm broke again. tell me why i rock so much.

days like yesterday brings out the bum in me. slept in till pretty late. sat infront of the idiot box for the whole afternoon as i snacked on whatever i could get my hands on. i don't see how i can not grow fat like this.

got so extremely tremedously bored i called the fatherness out for dinner. but he had some meeting after so he drove me to united square and i pigged out on a DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER. then the fatherness left and i walked around the awfully boring united square and got myself another top. then the brotherness came and met me there and i indulged in BEN & JERRY'S. (:

and today i woke up to nic's call at 0730 and she said they (haha) were 5minutes away. thanks ah. rushed like crazy. there were quite a few people sending niuniu off. quite emotional eh? haha anyway hotcakes with sausage meal after that. then i came back and slept till 3. bak kut teh for lunch. which was good. i should have gone to the gym the other day. tsk

and now i'm back home. i feel like renting some dvd's. which may include a lot like love again cause you-know-who is in it. ahem ASHTON KUTCHER ((: yeahyeah he's so yesterday's news but whatever he's still absolutely adorable eh?

alright. suntec then tennis with the pineapple tomorrow! she wants to play tennis at 3? which is INSANE cause if the weather was anywhere near as hot as today i would lock myself in the toilet and whine till 5. tsk i'm DARK enough. notice it's DARK not BLACK. tssskkkk

i'm off.
goodbye

SHOPPING!

2005-10-30T23:57:00.000-08:00

i look like a guy! omgosh. like some japanese dude with long ugly hair. at least the man tou hair is gone?

yesterday was fun. food preperation is tiring and not given enough credit for. tsk. hahaha but the whole day was really enjoyable (:

today was just about as wonderful as yesterday. had some prayer thing after service. which was so overnight prayer meet-ish. and we had to fast till 3. which of course me and evonne couldn't keep to cause we had little for breakfast. 45minutes difference only! haha no biggie! hahaha

everyone left church at 3-ish and only the "muggers" were left. wanted to go meet lulu at town but she took so long to call me backso i left first. shopped for over an hour before meeting the fatherness to continue shopping. so at the end of the day, i returned with five tops and four bottoms and a pair of very sore feet.

came back to rest my feet for over half an hour before going for dinner with the motherness and brotherness at parkway. where i also cut my hair.

the momma wanted to dye my hair for me today but noooo i have to go back to school on the fourth and go for that channel u show thing on the 16th which as cai lao shi says we are representitives of the school. tsk so after that i m gonna dye my hair (:

okay i m tired. i want to paint my room. who wants to paint my ceiling for me? hahaha

alright shall go sleep soon. to the gym tomorrow morning with the motherness again after her QI GONG class. tsk

goodbye (:

last day of school. FINALLY

2005-10-28T23:24:00.000-07:00

FINALLY. the last day of school has finally come. oh what joy (:

i'm not extremely pleased with my results. but i thank God for it and will keep my fingers hands legs and everything cross-able crossed. 4th november. JUDGEMENT DAY. tsk

school ended pretty well. mass was alright. i m oh so proud of myself for keeping awake. prize presentation was a bore. but nothing could compare to the tennis team "pep-talk" which took up half an hour of our one hour recess. mr lee just went on and on and then mrs tang came and repeated EVERYTHING he said and went on for an even longer time. and she was being unreasonable and kept saying how slow and unfit we were. and said we're not allowed to put on weight during the holidays. tsk i mean she doesn't look very fit herself. okay fine i m being mean. but i mean it's easier to listen to somebody who actually has their own personal fitness level to back up what he or she has to say about being fit than someone who looks like they haven't exercised in the past century. right?

back to class to have some final "bonding time" while the enthusiastic few volunteered to clean the class and scrub the tables. hahaha so everyone else just sat around in our little groups and talked and laughed and talked and laughed. and took loads of photos which just proved how NOT photogenic i am. hahaha then we got back our report books which came with many tears.

then i cleared my locker which i only came to realise today was half filled with junk. much of which was contributed by probably a whole year's issue of xing qi wu zhou bao. tsk but suprisingly the little books i brought home weighed a ton. thank goodness the motherness came to pick me and thankfully,again, sign the letter of my absence in school on wednesday. only then could i get my report book back. TSK but talk about good timing eh? haha

came back and slept the whole day away. then i watched a whole lot of tv and TADAH here i am. haha not my ideal friday night but hey slacking has left me in particularly high spirits. hahaha

i feel for a slice of cake! i'll WALK it off tomorrow. hahaha

okay shall go rest. long day tomorrow. wait correction. CONTINUE resting. haha

goodbye (:

as things come to an end.

2005-10-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

everyday seems to be getting more and more terrible. consolation? school ends tomorrow. and boy am i happy. it s been one helluva year.

today was terrible terrible terrible. but i did make my mind up about something. and vicki must be glad eh?

so the day went by with me sleeping for the first two hours again followed by gorging my face with food during recess then listening to my mp3 for the rest of the day whilst i did quite a bit of thinking. and such a day still managed to screw it self up. tsk

didn't go for training in the end cause it looked like it was going to rain and my calves still hurt from physical on thursday and i wasn't in a particularly good mood so all i wanted to do was go home. and that i did. cabbed home and wasted the whole day away.

the motherness came back with two ENOURMOUS secret recipe cakes. which i will indulge in at the expense of me growing much fattER. but it makes me happy so who cares

alright i m off.

i cry out to you

2005-10-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

today was alright. well i guess i started off the day on a bad foot

mad rush this afternoon to get to felly's house. which i did not see the need for since they left me loitering the whole condo for half an hour cause they refused to pick up their phones. went to play tennis after. which was quite hilarious. played like crap. but they didn't know (: haha

rented honey and bring it on again but we only managed disc one of honey. oh well but we or rather i ate A LOT while watching just that one disc. tsk

came back and went over to lulu's. wasted time and then had dinner. and then SNACKED on all the junk food she conveniently placed in her room :/

okay so that's about it. i m just lazy to continue blogging.

was considering ponning school again tomorrow and training too. but after today i've decided to go to school instead of waste my time at home and to go for training cause i can't even hit the ball into the court and i feel fat. so there i need my sleep (:

oh yes in case i sounded harsh in the beggining i did enjoy your company felly, stacey, boon, pear and celeste (:

goodbye(:

God works in wondrous ways

2005-10-25T23:59:00.000-07:00

it s 0111 now. and i'm online cause i m pon-ning school tomorrow (:

school today was boring. slept through the first 2hours of the day. got up for recess and then slacked the remainder of the day away. i say this lifestyle is bliss.

training after. but it rained cats and dogs chickens and ducks elephants and kangaroos again! gosh had to run around the school looking for people and to find mr lee and call the girls who left for kallang already who eventually came back drenched to the skin. stayed in school for physical. at least coach knew how worked or rather not worked our muscles were. so it wasn't too stressful. thank goodness. but the pineAPPLE couldn't walk after that. tsktsk

went to parkway after that with apple to wait for the fatherness to come pick me up. then to csc for dinner.

to the airport at 11 to pick the motherness up. i like the airport! haha

so that's about it! haha tennis tmr with the whole big group of us at felly's house (:

goodbye (:

confusion strikes again

2005-10-24T22:10:00.000-07:00

i see my post has mysteriously posted it self. oh well it was one of horrendous english so ignore it.

i can't seem to make up my mind on what i want. and often when i finally do it's too late. oh well

march of the penguins today was hmm. the penguins were adorable and all but it was a documentory. worst still it was in chinese. ahh but i suppose it was quite alright.

training resumes tomorrow. and it kinda sucks that a sec one thinks i need to be reminded of my responsibilities. sheesh though i don't think she meant it that way larh huh. speaking of tennis lulu and i would be missing spex training for 3 months cause they collect fees by 3months and we both missed a month already due to the exams so it would be a total waste of money. extremely extremely depressing. it just doesn t feel right and so difficult to part with. but hey it s cause of money. the thing this earth revolves round. tsk

alright america's next top model. final episode and i know whose gonna win thanks to everyone else who never ceases to remind me. tsk

goodbye

guilt or what?

2005-10-23T22:49:00.000-07:00

blogger has something against me and long posts. tsk

past few days have been oh so fine. friday was spent the way fridays were meant to be spent. so that i am satisfied (: haha watched lay it down for fellowship on saturday. was a real good show. compared to all the other shows we used to watch. haha so yes that was a summary of the post that blogger refused to publish. and who knows where it is now. tsk

went to meritus today for lunch. the comfort and places you can go with a car (: haha to taka after. and then i WALKED all the way to city hall. my gosh then to marina square then back to city hall. LOUSY SHOES. which had zero friction and left terrible terrible blisters on my feet. and now it hurts when i walk. sheesh. okay but it was rather fun. haha

alright. i m exhausted. shall go to sleep. MARCH OF THE PENGUINS tomorrow with all the other secondary twos at tampines mall. of all the shows. but oh well heard it was rather good. lets hope so. tsk

goodbye(:

there is hope..i know there is

2005-10-20T21:48:00.000-07:00

i m such a faliure. and i ll probably remain one for eternity.

i barely passed science. SCIENCE. gosh

i worked hard for these exams. i just didn t work smart. yeah and that darn right sucks to the bone. oh well what s done is done. i m just hoping for the best

was supposed to go for science tuition today. but i m really not in the mood to do kinematics and to face my ever so critical science tutor. last math and science tuition for me on saturday and i m officially done with tuition for the year. oh what JOY

school has been such a bore. managed to watch two videos today. shutter, which freaked everyone out. -shudders and white chicks the uncut version which was so HMMM. hahaha watched that one time too many.

jazz dance for post exam activities tomorrow. followed by an entrepreneurship workshop. i would be more than happy to participate in the jazz dance but if you need to look for me during the entreprenurship workshop you can find me in the toilet.

alright i m going to READ for ten minutes before child of our time.

and the idiot bids ye farewell

LORD..help

2005-10-19T22:07:00.000-07:00

today kinda sucked.

english, literature, d&t and math paper returned today. utterly utterly disappointed. if i worked my ass off and only got mediocre, maybe worst than mediocre, results, what s the point of studying. i m still holiding on to that little hope, however small it is.

the motherness picked me up from school today. so together with the brotherness we went to sakae sushi for the buffet. got rather frustrated at the motherness at constantly blaming her hunger on me. tsk anyway the buffet was rather alright. nothing fantastic. ate so much i think my fats would just spill over if i eat anything more.

to harvey norman and we went to look at cameras. FINALLY we might just get one. canon ixus zoom! they have it in BLACK. just not in harvey norman. I WANT! (:

okay that s the only thing that has managed to make me smile the entire day.

came home and proceeded to attempt various ways of making honey joy. from putting them in the toaster to the oven to the microwave. do you know that you can make "carbon cupcakes" by putting cornflakes glazed with honey in the microwave for 2minutes? the carbon cupcakes are complimented by smoke with a rather foul smell. go try it for yourself. so finally i just left a batch in the freezer and they turned out pretty alright. then i decided to make betty crocker's pound cake but was so inspired by the carbon cupcakes i decided to make cupcakes with the mix instead. so yes thank goodness they came out pretty alright. i still have two whole boxes of cornflakes though. bless me

alright i m in this rather weird state of mind now. so i m gonna spray paint the sole of my kappa's (:

goodbye

stand firm in the LORD

2005-10-18T22:28:00.000-07:00

take me to the secret place where i can only see your face

oh how my head hurts from excessive thinking. seriously why do i even bother thinking so much.

and so we got back our geog and cheena paper today. there s only one thing to say about it. crap. actually there are a plently more words to use but lets not get there. yeah but as disappointed as i am, i have to accept the fact that these were the results i deserved. i spent little to no attention studying these two papers. so i shouldn t complain. God has blessed me (:

it rained cats and dogs chickens and ducks today after school. cabbed home and rotted away like a mouldy piece of bread the entire day. but hey i managed to finish reading Cecilia Ahern's where rainbows end. another classic. an extremely good read (: finally i can get back to some reading in hopes of increasing my limited and dying vocabulary.

so much for getting my life back :/

TO THE BEACH

2005-10-17T18:16:00.000-07:00

i'm begging you, i'm begging you, i m begging you to BE MY ESCAPE

oh i m so very exhausted! woke up at 9 to go to tanah merah country club. waited for the mummy to finish her qi gong class (which really wasn't very qi gong-ish since it was in an air con room and they were sitting down) and then we went to the gym. ran on the tredmill for 20minutes and burned 70calories or something like that. pathethic. and i worked my abs!

to the beach after that with stacey and boon! haha so we did go to the beach in the end (: haha was mighty fun laughing like we were the only ones there. screaming till our lungs ached and all the weird photos. everything was oh so wonderful. and erm sandy and very wet. haha

spent only about over an hour there cause it started drizzling. wanted to go to TM but i got too lazy and my shorts were all icky and wet. so yes headed to 7-11 for a microwave lunch of spaghatti. and there goes my gym workout.

came back with boon. cause she needed to change. before she left and lu came over cause she was locked out of her house. hahaha. yes and she just left so now peace and quiet. oh soft and cosy bed here i come!

i m off. school tomorrow. RESULTS. -shudders

hostage to my own humanity

showers of blessing!

2005-10-16T22:46:00.000-07:00

today was an oh so rainy day. and it s only after the exams that i can totally relish the feeling the rain brings (:

everything was oh so fine today (: well except for shirley and desmond's rather mean and cutting remarks it was all good. no training for me though. oh well

had much fun lazing around in church listening to the sounds of the guitar and the rather out of tune singing and weird dancing the guys performed which did send me into hysterics.

something's wrong with my stomach these days. keep getting gastric. tsk

oh and i had a total pigging out session for dinner in my room today. tsk 2 pratas TWO omgosh. and to top it all of the mother came back with beancurd just as i popped the last bit of prata in my mouth. gobbled the whole bowl of beancurd down. gosh

oh who cares! to the GYM tomorrow morning with the mummy. who is on this sudden health craze. crazy enough to act twice her age and join qi gong. my gosh. worst still she asked me to join her in her qi gong session tmr morning before our gym workout. uhhhuuuhhh

sadly i m missing out on the beach outing tomorrow. but oh well will be meeting stacey and boon tommorow once they re done at the beach and me at the gym. to TM for the second day in a row. MOVIE!
i need serious retail therapy. anyone up for towning?

alright i m off! on days like these i just adore the rain (:

goodbye (:

I M BACK!

2005-10-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

I M BACK(:

i m so very proud of myself for not breaking my hiatus. so yes stacey i was on a hiatus believe it or not. well could've blogged yesterday but i ve gotten so inclined to not blog i was well too lazy to. but yes the exams are finally over! (: now it s time to work hard getting my life back! desperately need to catch up with the movie world. debbie! when's our movie marathon! haha

anyway the exams were pretty alright. science paper was a killer. but i expected that. math was kinda tricky but all i can do now is cross my fingers and pray real hard!

mr sim really knows how to spoil people s mood. right after the final paper. irritating person he is. anyway had our "traditional" (as tara puts it) post-exams meal after the science paper. walked all the way to the cheesecake cafe only to find it close. so after much deliberation we settled for coffe shop food. after which tara angeline nat and i went to rent a movie and kathy went somewhere else. was considering watching a light hearted bimbo flick and then we all changed our minds and decided to get a horror film instead. so a tale of two sisters it is. bought ben and jerry's cookie dough and cabbed back to my place. shared ben and jerry's before falling asleep mid-way through the movie. thank goodness or i could count on many sleepless nights. woke up at the climax of the movie but didnt get head nor tail of the plot. in the end only angeline got the plot. tara was still extremely confused and nat? she get s part of it. oh well

walked the three of them all the way to the traffic light at the end of the canal before walking back. gosh it was terribly far. but nevermind BURN FATS

which brings me to the point that i have grown extremely fat and chubby over the exams period. it s time for my diet to kick in. get myself back on form for tennis and start running or something.

church today was good (: went to the cc to play badminton and basketball till past 7 before returning to church cause the older ones were supposed to have bs. but nooo returned to the smell of durians. erm eww. and they only returned a half hour before the rest of us, namely the ones who waited for raymond to get done in the toilet, and they finished a whole box of durians :/

to sing post after that for "dinner" didn t eat cause i didn t feel like eating after walking all the way there. and soo chuan only agreed to go there cause i said i wanted to eat yong tau fu. but oh well. then we all sat through the oh so long conversation about food between siew may and arvin. seriously no one got what they were saying but them. oh well coffebean after and the woman gave me mocha ice blendded instead of vanilla. even after i insisted that it was mocha and confirmed it was mocha after i drank it. she still insisted it was vanilla. gosh vanilla would have been white and that was definitely not white. oh well drank it anyway. haha

and then here i am (: okay that was an awfully long post of bad english and utter randomness. well just getting the feel of blogging once again. so you ve gotta ignore my senseless ramblings.

alright i m off! charis kidz tomorrow. sad how my leave ended last sunday. but to contradict myself a little i miss the screaming laughter and everything else about the kids (: so yes i should get some rest, in front of the tv (:

goodbye my fellow earthlings (:

FREEDOM (:

hiatus!

2005-10-02T20:21:00.000-07:00

oh gosh i am such a LOSER! after telling myself countless times i m still online and blogging. if i could i would kick myself. oh whatever. i am PISSED beyond PISSED with myself yet again. cause i keep sleeping when i should be studying. idling when i should be studying. eating when i should be studying and blogging when i should be studying. i ve lost my study momentum. ohh no.

alright so like everyone else who were bright enough to decide this 20000 years ago. i m gonna abstain from the computer. HIATUS till 14/10/05

workworkwork

2005-10-01T23:59:00.000-07:00

my throat s killing me. what perfect timing, yet again, to get sick. tsk WATER. i need plenty of that

i am extremely pissed at myself for only completing 1/6 of what i intended to do today. that equals to paper one of a math paper? i am so brilliant eh.

tuition again today. and science tuition just gets me more demoralized with every lesson that goes by. i couldn t even manage 1/12 of the questions from the bedok view science paper. ughh i m so extremely screwed. and instead of studying what am i doing? blogging.

alright shall go now. church tmr! followed by math tuition! 3rd day in a row of math tuition. hah a record. and tomorrow i ll remember to bring my sweater instead of letting my finger nails turn purple. as in literally turn purple.

okay tata

stress.

2005-09-29T23:16:00.000-07:00

weirdly, the stress and crucial-ness of the exams just dawned on me. and in about 10minutes i m gonna start hyperventilating over math sums i am unable to do and science questions i can t answer. triple science seems like such a far fetched dream.

went for dental today with charlene. my teeth hurt now. thankfully it s only when i eat or rather attempt to eat. so it s not that bad and hey it controls my diet so there it s quite good really (:
and the colour of my braces now is so screwed.

alright i m gonna MUG! at least i m gonna try to. i think i m really slow. which is utterly frustrating that i take twice the time to do a task than any other person. oh whatever and even though i just woke up 2hrs ago i m feeling sleepy again. i m so tempted to write the word loser on my forehead. alright i m gone

goodbye (:

the final lap. I CAN DO IT!

2005-09-28T20:32:00.000-07:00

i m back to blog. three days withoug blogging and blogger's acting weird.

i seriously screwed my english eoys upside down. i therefore vow to actually read and RE-READ instructions from now on. i totally missed the point of my paper one and wrote extremely unnecessary points for my summary. yes yes i know i rock :/

geog and lit CA papers are finally back and i guess i did quite okay.

EOYs next week and i m online.

to marine parade library with stacey and pear after school today. we talked and laughed and did everything but study. and pearlyn pua was the best. she was looking through the english-japanese dictionary and filling her paper up with japanese vulgaraties. so much for studying. i therefore stick by the i-must-study-by-myself-and-only-myself rule. and i so need to get my mp3 player fixed.

dinner with daddy at parkway parade. BAN MIAN. okay the food i eat each day just gets fattier and fattier. oh and i found a new love VANILLA FRAPP (: though i still love my MANGO FRAPP just as much. vanilla frapp actually tastes like a melted mcdonald ice cream cone.

alright i shall go continue writing my chinese words. though stacey claims i m wasting my time cause it doesnt work and yeah i guess she s right cause she tried testing me the word i wrote just 5minutes before and i couldn t remember.

alright i m talking crap.
goodbye

doing the right thing. God is the way

2005-09-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

today was good. good cause i spent it with my church friends (:

stayed up till 4am last night, rather this morning, bombarding vicki with math sums. as usual i was working very slowly so i didn t get much done. however, weirdly i was motivated to study, as tired as i was. ended up falling asleep with the plan of getting up at 6am to continue with my work. and yes i did hear my handphone's alarm this time and could have gotten up. but noooo i went back to sleep and only got up at 10 45 to get ready for tuition.

hah my science tutor really has a way to make me feel exceedingly dumb. but as embarrassing as it was to not be able to answer simple science questions it was a wake up call to remind me to start revising my science. but oddly, i m not.

but i must say i did do quite a bit of math today! (: though for the paper 2 of the cedar secondary paper i kinda spent an hour on the second sum and half an hour on every other sum. even pastor chee kin noticed and questioned why i was only at the fourth question after 4hours. hmm

alright my eyes are closing on me. chariskidz tomorrow and i dont think i can skip it again this week without taking leave. so yes i m gonna catch up on some beauty sleep now.

goodbye my fellow earthlings.

motivation!

2005-09-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

i ve just commited the two biggest eating sins. namely to indulge in a double cheeseburger(my first in 2months(: ) and to stuff my face with ben and jerry's. tell me what kinda diet is this.

was supposed to go to starbucks to study today but instead met tara at the bus stop and decided to go to the library to study with her and russell. had macs for lunch and then we went to the bedok library. adults section was full so we went up to the children section and sat in this part-of-a-space ship thingy. first half an hour was productive but after that i did practically nothing. was busy being childish and having eraser fights with russell and laughing my head off at who knows what. sitting in the children s section really brings out the child in you. hmm

left at 5 30 for tuition. tuition was rather fun, ironically. was asking mr tan questions from my cedar paper homework. he ended up photocopying the paper for the class and going through quite a handful of questions which took up the whole lesson. so except for the last question i m done with paper 1 (: the most productive thing i ve did in days!

came home and slept till 11! okay and i m still sleepy somehow. alright i shall go finish up my homework!
goodbye(:

depressing?

2005-09-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

this week's OC was depressing. extremely. season finale for that too. whatever happened to happy endings?

today was productive in the sense that i cleared all the itsy bitsy dribs and drabs of homework that i ve been dragging on for so long. spent an hour doing my d&t oto and iso drawing. and without a break i proceeded to do my geog school dna worksheet thingy. so yes i m satisfied for that part of it. other than that no math no science no cheena no nothing done.

had to stay back after school today to finish our d&t workpiece. spent like 2hours doing it. was so bored and frustrated with my wrong calculations i simply stuck the pieces together when they didn t even fit. oh well i m just not a very technical person thats all.

to the airport with boon after that for macs. reached there only at 4 45. she had to rush home at 5 and i stayed on till 6 to finish part of my math homework. coincidentally met the brother at the mrt station after that haha

and i just have to say this
there are ant holes full of ants in my room. just yesterday i saw a trail of ants on my study table. and i keep feeling and seeing tiny ants crawl on my arms and bite the crap outta me. shoo ants shoo.

alright it s 12. i should go sleep (:
goodbye(:

wake me up when september ends

2005-09-21T22:00:00.000-07:00

i m craving ben and jerry's! no i must abstain from fatty food. waha

today was hmm. how should i say this. unproductive. came home and gorged my face with girl guide cookies whilst starring at the idiot box infront of me as i lay in the comfort of my bed.

not the time to be slacking like that. ha ha first paper on monday. this is no joke. tsk

alright shall go mug now.

goodbye (:

my ever present Lord

2005-09-20T23:50:00.000-07:00

nothing much happened today. nothing much to blog about but i will nonetheless cause my fingers are aching to move and type.

my throats acting up on me again and my noise feels weird. oh whatever

yogurt's good (: there are too many spellings to the word yogurt. yoghurt. i ll just use all variations.

it s been three days sice chariot by Gavin DeGraw has been on repeat mode on my computer. and i m still not sick of it. OH CHARIOT!

and i m irritated with the motherness for not letting me go for STOMP.

ants just adore my fat flesh and are devouring the hell outta me.

yes and that s a random post for you. i m gonna scavange for food. muahaha or maybe not.
goodbye

God's grace (:

2005-09-19T23:59:00.000-07:00

just felt like blogging despite the weird hour.

i passed my math test. with 2marks. but who cares since i thought i was going to fail, so i m not complaining.

LAP performances during assembly was hilarious. all the other classe's performaces are so lively and what is our class doing? the symphony of friendship which in my opinion is depressing and worst still we just stand there. oh whatever

came home and instead of studying fell asleep and only woke up to my brother s call asking if i wanted to go out for dinner. to csc for dinner only to realise that i should be having training instead of pigging out.

geog test s postponed to tomorrow. thank goodness or that paper would have been a goner too. not that it isnt now cause i ve merely glanced through the book. chengyu test tomorrow also. gosh i m gonna start yanking out my hair pretty soon.

oh yes i ve stocked up on my yoghurt ((: shall survive on that.

alright back to the emmy's for a little bit before i catch some shut eye.

goodbye (:

FATS! geog test. the worries

2005-09-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

quick post.

dinner today was delicious but oh the FATS! ounces over ounces of it! thank you chocolate fondue for being oh so yummilicious. my fats are starting to bulge out now. CRASH DIET!

oh gosh sat on the massage chair one time too many. now i still feel the rollers in my back, especially when i lean against something. now i understand why you should do it only ONCE.

geog test on monday! and my textbook is with ameliaaaaa! i am so dead for my ca4's. and after math tuition today i ve come to realise how dead i am in general, cause my eoy's are gonna be a lost cause if i don t start focusing.

alright i m off!
goodbye

fats!

2005-09-16T23:13:00.000-07:00

it s a friday! and i ve been indoors the entire day :/

ate so much for dinner/supper that i m gonna pop. and i really mean A LOT. and for that i shall only have yoghurt tomorrow!

there s nothing much to blog about since all i ve been doing is watching tv programme after tv programme.

alright shall go finish my tuition hw now! since my brain has begun functioning again and the headache is more or less gone.

so yes goodbye

sick and worried. God is present

2005-09-15T22:27:00.000-07:00

i m sick ):

running a fever and my throat hurts and my head's spinning. thank goodness it isn t dengue. or so i hope.

went to school at 11 45 today to take my zuo wen test. left an hour later. what a total waste of time, judging from the fact that the quality of my zuo wen is as good as not taking the test at all.

the fatherness was supposed to bring me to mount alvernia hospital but in the end the momma came and brought me to some clinic. which in my opinion is much better cause they didn t give me a blood test. which wouldn t have been the case if i went to mount alvernia.

alright my head s still spinning. going to PREPARE myself for the oc (: no school tomorrow. and this may sound weird but i m tired of sleeping. haha what a sentence. but seriously that s all i have been doing.

but i guess i m getting better since i m getting back my appetite. :/

alright tas

regrets and promises

2005-09-14T23:20:00.000-07:00

today was shitted. pure crap

math paper is screwed and my blur-ness just might leave me more than screwed for lit. thanks man i so need this to add on to my stress and to think i was looking forward to the end of today.

so maybe things don t always go my way, but the world still goes on. i ll just have to put all thoughts aside and focus on what s ahead. but seriously school was bad. and that s an understatement.

decided to go for csc training instead of sitting at home and cry over spilt milk. had this terrible headache AGAIN. took a panadol but the effect was slow. no teens there today. just the adults. played like crap the first round cause with every step i took the impact travels straight to my brain. and the adults took it that i got a headache under the stress of their weird strokes and all. gosh i hate it when people treat you like you re a beginner when you ve been playing for donkey years. :/
oh well but the adults are nice, very encouraging. haha i contradict myself oh so much

oh yes vicki came over today (: was supposed to study but i didn t even open a book or take a pen out of my pencil case. gosh it s quite hard to imagine how we could slack away about 4hours doing absolutely nothing. okay if you call banging the piano and drawing smiley faces on paper something than yes we did something.

alright i m tired. i m gonna have an early night. though it s already 2320. oh well i m off
goodbye

things don t come that easy...

2005-09-13T17:58:00.000-07:00

okay i shall blog just a teensy bit since i m online. going for dinner opposite in a little bit, though i m extremely full from the egg bun i had for lunch.

school was alright. felt extremely lethargic the whole day but still i managed to pull through. walked like a zillion miles with my extremely heavy bag to run an errand at that area. walked there and back to school and back there again and back to school again. i think i covered AT LEAST 2km. it would have been much less torturous without my bag. nevermind, burn fats.

wanted to pon training, but since ellie wouldn t pon with me i still went. at least the weather was good and there wasn t physical. played doubles. won one game lost the other. which i m not very suprised at cause the first game kinda drained me out already. and i lost my serve again. frustrating!

and about the girl jin pei envangelised to. although shirley said that she seemed keen, i dont think so. i don t even think she is that pleasent a girl they claim her to be. i ve not met her but that s what her friendS told me. oh well i m not going to pass a judgement on her till i ve met her. will need to consult shirley on this first. i guess it s true that hardly no one will come knocking on your door, ready for you to bring into church. but it s a challenge that i m ready to take up (:

alright math and lit ca tomorrow. talk about "good" timing. i m off
toodles

collide. term 4

2005-09-12T21:11:00.000-07:00

term 4 begins. the stress is coming on stronger than any other term but instead i m doing less than i did before. better work my ass off before i regret it.

the rain this evening was scary. wait change that to thunderstorm. went to queensway to get some things changed and the usually half an hour journey took us an hour. roads were jammed and the bolts of lightining constantly flashing right infront of our eyes made the trip really well scary dangerous nerve racking. anyway i ve finally got my handphone cover changed. the GIANT crack really made it hard to see.

oh yes, went to the library after school with fern and that chinese teacher's daughter,lucy. gosh we were doing everything but our work and lucy kept making us translate english words into chinese, which if you don t know we are hopeless at. left at 4 with nothing done. but instead got myself another one of those headaches i ve been constantly getting recently. oh well

alright i still haven t finish my lit essay questions after lets see 10 000 years. so i shall go attempt it?
alright goodbye (:

school tomorrow ):

2005-09-11T21:46:00.000-07:00

school re-opens tomorrow ):

spent the whole of today on 2 lit essay questions. pathethic. 2more to go! gosh it s gonna take me about half a million light years to finish it. wish me luck that i dont die from all the tests and stress tomorrow.

spent 2 and a half hours last night drawing A MAN for the chariskidz game. he s about half my height, and you can call him man-man (: he was a lot of work and the kids were so un-participative today. but i couldn t be bothered cause i wasn t in much more of a better mood then they were.

spent like 2hours on one lit question the entire morning. i m such a loser.

lunch at long john's was one word. yes you guessed it FATTENING. oh well i m gonna grow up an elephant. and the mummy wouldn t let me drink the herbal life dieting thing. tsk

and cause of the lightning, tennis was cancelled. went to lulu's and had steamboat. which isnt too bad cause most of it was erm vegetables. and her mum made TOFU CHEESECAKE. first time i hear cheesecake no cheese. but it was nice (: and it was made of tofu and fruits so it s erm healthy? cheesecake no cheese :/ then wouldn t it just be tofu cake. tsk

alright i shall go do my lit or something. i m so screwed tomorrow. i m not ready for a single CA.
and also i will have to go find some sec 1 girl that shirley's hgc evangelised to.

alright i m tired. and am just aimlessly rambling which would be a similar case once i start doing those lit essay questions.

alright i m off
tas

nike! (:

2005-09-10T20:55:00.000-07:00

oh crap, it just dawned on me that the holidays are drawing to an end. and i was just getting used to sleeping every single spare minute i had. and the best thing is that i still have homework, unattempted, undone, uncompleted and you get the idea. and the lit essay questionS have yet to be answered. i am so extremely screwed. i m considering leaving mid-way chariskidz tomorrow. only cause i m doing games which brings me to the point that i have to prepare for that too. ughh it seems to me that i haven t learnt my no-more-last-minute-work lesson from last time. :/

the ants in my room are biting the crap out of me and i m itching like nobody's business. so much for eating half a slice of cake and carelessly leaving it in my room.

skipped bs and fellowship today. feel extremely guilty cause instead of doing my work i went to ~~sleep~~ take a erm short 2 1/2 hour nap? ah who am i kidding. tsk woke up only cause the daddy came to pick me up for dinner. went to parkway for sushi tei. walked around for a bit before deciding to head to queensway cause they sell nike and adidas apparel for dirt cheap prices. so yes bought quite a bit of nike stuff which i feel extremely guilty for splurging on. but i got THAT black tennis skirt! ((: okay but that doesn t eliminate the fact that i still feel guilty. gosh i m seriously good at acting like i ve got a lot of money to spend :/

and i guess i haven t been keeping to my word. so much for being SELF-GROUNDED. and SAVING MONEY. okay trust me, from next week onwards i ll go to no shopping centres (unless for extremely valid reasons) and i ll spend on nothing but on things that ll go down my oesphagus and get digested in my already very fat stomach.

okay i need a bath.
tata (:

youth chalet (:

2005-09-09T19:02:00.000-07:00

youth chalet yesterday was fun. extremely (:

had much fun drawing on sand, sitting on the breakwater and starring at the clouds and looking far beyond the horizon. and it didn t take a genius to realise how utterly littered singapore's beaches are. perfect weather, perfect situation to do a lot of thinking. and J2! -nudges niu. haha. on our way to the clubhouse to bathe last night, we, namely nic niu sam and i, decided to go to the beach to splash around. by then it was already around 1am. jumped a hundred and one times to get a nice shot of us in the air. played in the nice warm sea till 0245 only to find the clubhouse toilet locked and had to go back to the room's tiny toilet to bathe. which wasnt too bad. more photos to come. haha stayed up the whole night or rather morning to do trigo. haha successful (: though i realise i do math real slow and spend like half an hour or more on one sum. and i m not exaggerating. left the chalet at 0930 for breakfast at macs. HOTCAKES! cabbed home and plonked on my bed and woke up at 4 30pm instead of the plan on 12pm. wonderful. i m not in the mood to do anything now, but i still have got that dreaded lit essay to do. oh well

oh yes and last night's one tree hill season finale was so wrong. they can t end the season that way! it s just wrong! haha but dan dying has left me satisfied enough, which somehow makes me sound rather sadistic. :/

alright i m off.
goodbye (:

some things just shouldn t last

2005-09-07T23:11:00.000-07:00

i wasted a day of the holidays by having some obsession over the computer and sleeping. hah how typical of me

was almost driven insane by being cooped up in my room for the whole day. so i called lu and i went over to her house. was supposed to study but i ended up reading outdated 8days and searching for a picture in her comp which we still havent found. and when i signed in my msn from her computer, it started sending out this virus message to everyone. freaked the hell outta me. so sorry anyone who received it. haha ended up at home to check if anyone really received it. which is dumb and pointless

went to 7-11 at 10pm cause we wanted to go for a walk and she wanted her dinosaur gummies :/ ended up sitting at the bench at the walkway and getting high on big m milk.

alright i haven t done anything productive or any studying the WHOLE day. wonderful. and i still have that lit essay thing to do and it s not as if i understand shakespeare and that same man who wrote the most beautiful stories in history almost caused me to fail lit. hah

alright tennis, then to town then to church chalet tomorrow at east coast park. if you re bored you can conviniently BUMP into me there eh. okay i m not making sense. haha and nic we shall study by the beach! (: haha okay so fun, though it s only one night it ll be fun enough. haha

and my phone has officially die-ded on me! the buttons can t be pressed unless the phone is banged against something. so anyone wanna buy me a new phone (: yeah in my dreams

alright i m still high. haha
goodbye humans (:

reminiscing the past

2005-09-06T20:08:00.000-07:00

recently, i ve been reflecting a lot about the past. regretting my mistakes and enjoying the sweet nostalgia some memories bring. well but life's just the way it is and there s no turning back time, just looking forward into the future.

today was rather eventful. eventful enough to leave me rather exhausted. the day started out much earlier than my usual holiday s would start. got up at 9am and as usual i was late. had to cab to school to meet apple. meaning i had to abort my original plan of taking the bus and walking to school from there. oh well. got my lit book and cause we were late again we shared a cab to eunos tech park. the pineapple was being extremely blur and blamed her blur-ness on the three bottles of fruit tree fresh she drank while waiting for me. haha

was extremely determined and motivated to play well, at least for the first half an hour. worked mainly on my serve and i forced myself to use the continental grip. gaining back my momentum. hopefully csc training tomorrow will put me back on track (: played from 10 to 12-ish then to macs for lunch. fries and bubble tea! after the pineapple s house we left for cinelesiure cause william hung aka han xiang wanted to watch one more chance and apple managed to coax me into watching it. so yes to cinelesiure where the tickets were sold out. ended up going to PS to watch it. throwed about 10bucks down some rather ah lian-ish arcade game which really is quite fun and has left me very much addicted.

one more chance was rather good. touching and filled with what i call singaporean humour. extremely hilarious. trained home after the show and went to the tuition centre to arrange science tuition cause apparently the private tuitor and my mother couldn t come to an agreement. so yes it s all settled (:

alright i m hungy! haven t had anything since lunch no wait since popcorn. i m craving ben and jerry's cookie dough!

alright i m off.
goodbye (:

traintraintrain!!

2005-09-05T22:14:00.000-07:00

i m back from csc training. and after a week or so of not training, i suck. i really do :/

firstly, my new barricade's beautiful and all but seriously it s a size too big. and in my hopeless attempt to prevent myself from dragging my feet, it results in me walking really oddly. much less running. it s difficult even to keep myself from tripping over my own feet. my service was terrible and even my flat serve didn t make it across the net. and my shots were just SPLAT. terrible. had to play matches with the irritating person. and during the second match michael ching cheng chong (one of them) stood and watched. pressure. and for once pressure worked against me. so in conclusion i played like crap today. crappier than i usually play.
okay enough about tennis, for now

today wasn t very productive. you know being the bum that i am i got up late and did virtually nothing but waste hours infront of the computer and counting down till i could leave the house for training. oh well i predict tomorrow would be similar to today

oh wait. will have to meet the pineapple at school tomorrow to get my lit book which i so carelessly dumped into my locker when i have homework. and then to eunos tech park to play tennis and maybe swim. then to parkway for lunch and i m still contemplating if i should get that rusty purse thingy. oh well we shall see tomorrow. maybe i should get a skirt of equivilent value instead (:
and i ll have to go with amelia and debbie to town or PS to watch a movie on wednesday. i know i m SELF-GROUNDED except for tennis related events or reasons worthy enough. but we planned it way before i self-grounded myself. haha maybe i ll go with lu to creative headquarters instead. my mp3 has been dead for 7months already :/

alright i m hungry! only had a prata and ham sandwhich the whole day and i m starving and craving for soup! shall go hunt for campbell soup ((:

AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL in a bit (:

the simple pleasures in life(:

goodbye fellow earthlings

it rains on the wrong days :(

2005-09-04T23:48:00.000-07:00

it always manages to rain on the wrong days at the wrong time in the wrong amounts :/

to put it simply across, my new barricade s are still fresh and un-worn and i m afraid that it ll shrivel up and decompose even before my feet sinks into it. therefore csc tomorrow! who cares about irritating people rather person. i need to get on court and swing away.

sermon today was very much enriching and it really felt like God was giving me a squeeze on the shoulder and telling me to go on and not give up when things go wrong. why do we have bad days? it s simply a reminder from God to go back to Him. somehow it s just comforting to know.

lazed around in church for who knows how long. the new food court just opened yesterday so naturally everyone flocked there today. but cause it was raining and i refused to slosh around in deep puddles and get drenched to the skin cause if you guys don t know, umbrellas have something against me and it never works to keep me dry, i stayed in church. did a teensy little bit of zuo ye and i only managed to finish ch 23 which was meant to be passed up what, last week.

anyway, i ve decided to save up every penny till school lets out in late november? and then i m going on a major shopping spree and you just watch me. also i do forsee the annual trip to genting? and this time i m making sure we stop off at KL to shop. malaysia mega sale (:
but before that the last item i m gonna splurge on would be that RUSTY PURSE THINGY. (: though its pretty much too small to fit anything in but a packet of tissue and handphone, i think it s to die for (:

oh yes the holidays have pretty much enhanced my bummish characteristics and i actually came home and slept from 4 30pm till 9 30pm. :/ could have slept more but i kinda freaked myself out for sleeping so long.

i missed dude, where's my car yesterday. which means i missed ASHTON KUTCHER! i know he was so yesterday's news but you can t stop me from falling head over heels in love with him. hahaha

alright i m going to re-attempt my zup ye (: evonne where are you! i know you want to help me do it! haha
goodbye

responsibilities

2005-09-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

it s currently 0226. my eyes are closing on me, but until my hair dries i ll have to keep awake.

friday and saturday was rather good.

fridayfridayfriday. got back our report books and i must say i m rather satisfied with my results. so the hard work did pay off. (: friday also marked the start of the september holidays, which really is just a nicer name to study break. stayed around in the school library in hopes to study but only managed two sums before dozing off for 15minutes and starring into space the rest of the time. how wonderful of me eh. apple messaged me then and asked if i wanted to work. had nothing to do as usual, so i agreed. dinner at parkway with the pineapple and then to east coast lagoon to meet the half an hour late han xiang and medaline. han xiang wanted to watch a movie and volunteered to treat us to one too. so we adjourned to cinelesiure at 11-ish to get tickets. one more chance was sold out till the 0430 show. so we decided to watch herbie at 0155 instead. i only agreed cause han xiang said he ll call my mother to explain. in the end i got the jitters and mother phobia and decided to call the wonderful brother instead. while waiting for 0155 to come we went to mohamad sultan to check out the pubs for the next day's work. herbie fully loaded after that. show wasn t too bad, a little draggy but had a good ending. watched the show with an extremely heavy and guilty heart. got home at 0400~~0200~~ by the hpb chauffered mercs cab (:

and so today was the normal routine, to tuition then to church. had arts excursion today at the esplanade. reminiscing the moon. not too bad. only got better after they flooded the stage with water (: apple met me at the esplanade and ms soo refused to let me go from there cause my father wasn t there yet, which he was but just couldn t find the right enterance. she was pms-ing to me and in the end we settled with a phone call to my dad and i owe her a letter when school re-opens. went to long johns at mcdonald house to grab a bite and change. omgosh the toilet upstairs is extremely freaky and all the workers there were talking about how the heard someone screaming the day before and today. was naturally freaked out being the scary cat that i am. in the end one of the workers accompanied apple and i up. -shudders i vow never to return there EVER. afterall, if my history knowledge is right, a bomb was dropped at mcdonald house by the indonesians because of the disagreements between the singapore and malaysia merger? okay anyway, to mohammad sultan to work again. got to go to all the pubs,bars, dance clubs and what have you. oh and at double o there was this one guy who wanted to pay me or tip me or whatever and stretched out a ten dollar bill at me which i refused to take unless i wanted to get terminated from my job. and besides my aching legs and choked, tar infested lungs today was alright, quite fun actually.

and because i feel extremely guilty about last night and for coming back past 0130 again today, i have officially SELF-GROUNDED myself. call me introvert or mad but i feel that this is the most responsible thing to do. and also cause i don t want my mother to be right about me turning into the wild party animal like my sister. yes so i m staying in this holiday unless for worthy reasons like to play tennis.

my feet are dying to slip into my new barricade tennis shoes (:

alright this posts has been extremely long and my head is spinning from enhaling too much smoke.

so i'll end off here
goodbye (:

adidas! barricade

2005-09-01T22:00:00.000-07:00

oh i m extremely satisfied with my purchases today! bought the adidas barricade tennis shoes! (: and at the same time got a nike tennis shirt at a real steal!

in the end i didn t go play tennis with the pineapple cause i wasn t feeling too good in the morning. didn t go to creative headquarters too cause lulu couldn t find her receipt. could have gone to watch a movie but i was too lazy to get up. so you can say i spent the whole day being a bum and refusing to do anything but laze on the bed infront of the tv and munch on snack after snack. which brings me to the point that i think i put on a kg today. but i do not regret eating the yoghurt fruit ice cream! (: the same one we had on family day. okay what am i doing talking about food again.

oh gosh the exams are coming and i still have so many chapters to cover. :/

alright i m gonna watch child of our time now. and then the oc and ONE TREE HILL (:

oh yes! roddick is out of the US open! ): what s worse it s his birthday?!

okay this has been another one of my extremely random posts.
goodbye

teacher's day (:

2005-08-31T22:00:00.000-07:00

i had fun today (:

today was suprisingly fun. even mass was fun. well fun enough. for the hymns they actually introduced in the drums and electric guitar. makes a world of difference. and we sang nice songs today (: though i m not that big a fan of josh groban.

then we had games day. was frantically allocating and transferring people from game to game at the very last minute. cai lao shi was hilarious. with her extremely RETRO sunglasses which probably weren t meant to be retro, she brisked walk across the field and back with the beanbag nestled in her hair. at least there is some use of that HAIRstyle of hers. i have a sore throat from cheering too much and too loudly. and ms nooryati can run! hahaha

anyway 2/3 rocks. i m pretty sure we clinched two first prizes out of 4 events. not bad eh (:

the class party was good (: and i dont just mean the food. hahaha. though the two cups of milo left me pretty much full for quite awhile. haha

the bad ending to this happy story were the lessons. got back our literature papers, like finally. my results for that paper is extremely unsatisfactory and definitely not worth the anticipation and long wait to get back our papers. i guess shakespeare s just not my thing. time to pull up my socks, what lesson does this bring about? literature should not be taken forgrantted and put in lesser priority than the other subjects.

met vicki at kcp although i told her that the teachers wouldn t be there. for reasons i do not know, just that the announcement was made during school hours. still she insisted that we met there. went in to snack on something. baked mashed potato! and the very much missed chilli fishballs, though i m a loser when it comes to chilli. oh well it was good (:

to starbucks after that to study. and although we didn t do much it was definitely our most productive study session. decided to put this "rule" in the last half an hour, that whoever talks within that half an hour will have to buy the other person a mcflurry. and vicki owes me TWO. muahaha
kop-ped vicki s mango frapp. see i m so influential, i get people to love that drink. wahaha
had twister fries for my PRE-DINNER. hahaha

had ham sandwhich for dinner ((:

had tuition at 7. teacher is nice but she s pretty unsure of a handful of things. but i guess she ll do. and then here i am

tennis tomorrow with apple. then to creative headquarters with lulu to FINALLY repair my mp3 player which has been spoilt for 6 months. and then to PS for a movie. oh how i just love holidays. okay i think i feel like baking cookies now. of course the pre-made kind. food poisoning myself isn t gonna be a pretty sight.

i ate so much today! fatfat me.

i m gonna work all those fats away tomorrow! yes i am determined! haha

alright goodbye (:

open the eyes of my heart

2005-08-30T19:34:00.000-07:00

did you feel the mountains tremble?

well today was rather alright, almost good. in school the hours seemed to tick by oh so slowly. but everything seemed relatively alright and PE was spent starring into the dark clouds watching the wind blow them away (:

and kc has totally lost it s mind, and i just about had it with the system and teachers there. tell me which school has lessons on teacher's day? i mean if you re not giving the students a break at least give the teachers one. and mrs sng caught me during morning assembly for my socks yesterday and made me rip my pinafore sewings again. she said the pinafore must touch the knee when mine was already covering 1/4 of my knee. more demerit points. gosh

well i shall break tradition and deprive the teachers of another gift cause i m not getting any gifts of any sort for them. i m pennyless and am just too lazy to shop for things that a teacher would chuck aside a month from now.

games day tomorrow. looking forward to seeing cai lao shi run with a ball in her hands and a beanbag on her head. wahaha

oh and i found a tuitor! tuition starts tomorrow (: okay a smiley seems fairly inappropriate...

alright i m ranting aimlessly. shall go occupy myself before i gorge my face with fatty food.

one more thing. thank you LULU for the pretty pink pen and loaning me your shoes today! really appreciate it (:

goodbye(:

this weird numbness flows through me

2005-08-29T21:20:00.000-07:00

things seem so different since yesterday. it isn t all good but my perspective on things have changed and that i am glad.

thank you everybody who put a smile on my face, i love you guys! (: i have great friends if you don't. haha

it NEVER was about the shoes

alright enough of that..
school was as usual. especially enjoyed music (: playing the guitar is just oh so relaxing. and mr ong played rather plucked heart of worship and it was wow. i m going to master that song one day, watch me. haha

additional lit lessons after school and right after that i went to the library to do my science. rather condusive environment, okay fine you must be thinking DUH. mdm lu/loo's 8year old daughter was there and she s adorable (:

the auction opposite is super noisy! okay i m just thankful it s not the ge tai like last year. that one really freaked lu and i out cause we started singing along :/

alright LULU i m going to meet you now! haha okay america's next top model after! dietdietdiet!

goodbye

communication brings perspective

2005-08-27T22:21:00.000-07:00

today was fairly enriching (: bible study was good. though i came late it spoke to me fairly strongly. fellowship was rather interesting. did some personality test and well it s rather accurate and it did set me thinking about a lot of things. after fellowship nic niu and i went to long john's for dinner! fattening fattening fattening! then jeremy came and joined us. talked about tons of stuff. church stuff. communication brings perspective. haha

on the train i saw the fatherness (: haha

its 10 and i m still on the computer. been sourcing for a tuitor. need one urgently. and maybe only for a month? any reccomendations?

alright i m off
toodles

mooncakes (:

2005-08-26T21:17:00.000-07:00

oh gosh! i m so full i m gonna pop!

just came back from lulu's. was supposed to study but we ended up talking, as usual. after dinner her mother was making mooncakes so we helped out. mighty fun! made minature bite size pieces! but gosh it s terribly oily which means extremely fattening. and i actually ate one whole big green one with green filling. it tasted good but on top of dinner, i m seriously going to vomit out everything. okay no one needed to know that

school was as per normal. slept during cheena again for one whole hour. this time cai tou asked me what happened to me. when i replied i had a headache she just commented why i always get headaches and then i went back to sleep. one whole hour! BLISS!

stayed back after school to do the tennis board. we are so extremely "efficient" spent like 45minutes just cutting out photos. :/ and what is the world turning into now a days. all the sec one's seem to be packed with tuition and everything else every single day. terrible

to starbucks after. MANGO FRAPP. DOUBLE BLISS (:

and here i am. it s a fridaaaay! was supposed to work today from 3pm-10pm at tampines but i didn t feel like doing it. and then was supposed to work tonight again from 10pm-12am at orchard but nooo i m too lazy. so MAYBE i ll work again tomorrow night. i need the cash man. and just maybe we ll be able to go to china black again tmr (:

okay i m off
goodbye

things will turn better, just trust in the Lord

2005-08-25T20:00:00.000-07:00

today was terrible. frustrating really. i ve spent enough energy steaming. i m tired. ~~i hate myself~~

guess what, i ve finally reached the point where i m sick of tennis. i don t know if it s the people around me and whom i play with or i just lost the drive and passion for it. i m guessing it s the latter, can t do anything about it till after the exams where i ll re-kindle my love for the game (:

alright the first para probably sums up my day. and seriously it was shit.

working again

2005-08-24T23:00:00.000-07:00

back from work. it s been a boring and extremely long day. apple and i were the only one's tending the booth until 7 when madeline came. gosh and there were no chairs so we had to stand or sit on the floor which wasn t a very nice sight considering the fact that we were located in the centre of the mall and everyone could look down on us. worked for 6 whole hours today :/
which means no school work was done. 5more weeks till the eoys.

alright i m going back to watch arts central's child of our time (:

goodbye

muscle aches, already

2005-08-23T20:15:00.000-07:00

it rained today, AGAIN. had physical training AGAIN. oh gosh and this time i really worked those muscles cause now my shoulders ache :/

school was quite alright, suprisingly i managed to keep awake and listened in class. and i even kept awake during cheena (: but i think i m really slow cause i can t seem to grasp the trigo concept. well i know the rules and all that but i take ages to analyse the question. oh well

had dinner at csc and the service there was TERRIBLE. you probably had to break a ketchup bottle or two to get their attention. ate really fatty fries and tau suan (: and then i came home and fell asleep. how bum-ish can i get.

working again tomorrow. 3-10pm. at least there is a change in venue but still it justs messes up my schedule completely. which means i have to postpone the tennis board deco thingy, vicki coming to my house and not go for csc training. oh well and i m only earning like 32bucks tmr? ahh better than nothing i guess

alright i m off
goodbye(:

bad day ):

2005-08-22T20:23:00.000-07:00

monday blues ):

i don t know why i m always so tired. was rather tired today although i slept at 12am which is much earlier than usual. ah whatever. math was rather hilarious, kinda whacked miss nooryati in the face, accidently. gosh but i thought it was rather funny, and so did everyone else. thanks larh stacey! go and paste the measuring tape on my face :/

missed study skills to do the tennis notice board. and i shouldn t have missed it cause nothing was done for the board. NOTHING. gosh but nattawadee is damn funny (: especially when she s freaking out. waited for kai boon to end study skills and cause i missed 32 and it was scorching hot, i decided to cab home. caused me what $2.70 :/

came home and was supposed to study but noooo i fell asleep until 6-ish where i left for tennis. the sky was a gorgeous pink and there was a rainbow directly above me. and since the tennis courts are on the roof the sight was so clear and pretty (: and then someone had to go ruin my mood mainly cause people like him cannot define the difference between being dead tired and just pissed. and after failing to do that keeps irritating the hell outta others. short fart.

arghh i m pissed beyond words.

shall go take a nice long shower and then watch america's next top model. those skinny girls make me so jealous. ha ha

goodbye

another day at work.

2005-08-21T22:17:00.000-07:00

today was rather tiring :/

slept at 5am last night watching a lot like love. ASHTON KUTCHER! omgosh, my new found love! i just realised that all the good looking stars or famous people's name starts with a. you know adam brody and andy roddick and now ASHTON KUTCHER -melts
anyway the show was oh so sweet, a little draggy at times but none the less sweet (:

got up at 7 30am this morning and i was all energized right till praise and worship where i actually dozed off, somehow standing up. woke up abruptly when i was about to fall.
apple smsed me at 1 and asked me if i wanted to work today. so yes rushed like crazy and reached there at 2 30. waited for han xiang until 4pm and he still wasn t there! wasted like a lot of time just sitting there, stoning. xiao ting came at 4-ish and we went to set up the stuff. gave out the stuff and han xiang finally came at what 6pm! had shilin for dinner and the pineAPPLE and i left for heeren at 6 45. took some pretty prints and walked around with my extremely heavy bag which left my shoulder aching. and it still is. and then here i am home!

school again tomorrow ): and i haven t got anything done! i forsee another trip to starbucks tomorrow and my beloved mango frapp. but not before i settle the tennis board with the others.

alright i m getting way too boring.
goodbye
~~ashton kutcher!~~

nice lungs (:

2005-08-20T23:11:00.000-07:00

i m falling ill :(

anyway i went to watch the maid with apple yesterday. as usual i was freaked out even before the show started, all thanks to the trailers of all the other horror films. the maid was alright, english was terrible and storyline too absurd. gosh after the show my fingers were numb from covering my ears and eyes. i feel so cheated of my feelings and $8.

walked around a bit with the pineAPPLE after that. then she had to work last minute and i asked if i could work too and ,yeah i could (: so we hurried over to fareast plaza. was working for the health promotion board encouraging people to quit smoking. so we put on the NICE LUNGS tee and proceeded to give out the anti-smoking bookmarks/postcards thingies. oh yes our job was also to check if there were any underage smokers and well catch them. so we caught two and had to call the police down. and the singapore police force is SLOW. very slow. they took a whole half and hour to forty five minutes to get down. rubbish

continued to give out stuff till ten thirty where we went to CHINABLACK! (: suprisingly it was rather empty but the lights and smoke was oh so cool. the staff and people there are hilarious really, had loads of fun inside and the music was so good that we were tempted to stand in the middle of the empty dance floor and dance. after chinablack we adjourned to orchard towers where all the sleazy pubs were. still we had to go in and give out the anti-smoking tissues. gosh every man had a woman on his lap and the place just reeked of cigarette smoke. terrible experience. at the end of the day after approaching so many smokers i could barely breathe and my NICE LUNGS tee could very well be altered to write rotten lungs or something.

but overall it was extremely fun (:

the brotherness picked me up after that and we went to macs to meet some others for supper. went home after that and straight away went to sleep.
woke up went to tuition came back slept missed church cause i was too tired and couldn t wake up. finally got up at 6 went to popular went to video ezy rented a lot like love came back talked to momma played with aries and HERE I AM.

yes so i shall get back to the books for a teensy little bit and then i m going to watch A LOT LIKE LOVE (:

alrighty then
tata

RAIN DOWN!!

2005-08-18T18:17:00.000-07:00

school training just ended! rather physical training since it RAINED. so much for humming delirious's rain down during class :/ anyway for ONCE physical wasn t extremely torturous. started off with the usual 300 jumping jacks than quick feet and all that. we then adjourned to the gym that either none of us heard of or been to. though it was rather physically taxing it was a good change to work out in the air-con. haha (:

in school i live for cheena lessons! haha seriously i look forward to cheena classes cause i realise i always manage to get away with sleeping in class. lousy teacher. she stands infront of my table with me sprawled over it, asleep and she doesn t even care. i simply adore teachers like her (:

oh yes have i told you how weird my school can get with rules? yes there is a new rule yet again and this time it s beyond ridiculous. apparently we are not to be seen with boys in our school uniform. not even our brothers or cousins. nope and i dont think it really helps that you have "good relations with the principal of st pats" -shakes head

haha okay i m running out of stuff to say. oh yes THE MAID and towning with pineAPPLE pie tomorrow! oh a very much needed break! from what i dont know. cause my CLAIMS to be studying really is just an excuse for me to sleep without feeling extremely guilty. okay i m not making sense. i m gonna bathe and finish watching WIN A DATE WITH TAD HAMLETON.

okay goodbye(:

decisions

2005-08-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

once again i m back from tennis at csc. played doubles and although me and ai ren(?), won i played like CRAP. worst than crap. i think i either play too much tennis or don't take trainings seriously enough. i m guessing it s the latter.

oh yes and i need a new pair of tennis shoes. mine are DEAD. the soles are a goner and there is little to no friction at all. and they are barely a year old! gosh. but i think i ll get them either soon or when tornament approaches.
note to self: stop dragging feet

school was bad. didnt have sufficient sleep the previous night so i woke up groggy and not to mention extremely grouchy. and having a dog going round in circles around you and prancing on you doesn t help much. and lit test was terrible and i screwed the whole paper up. cause mrs ng was being crazy and started the test when we werent even ready. so i started off bad and was distracted by the giant tear in the paper. so yeah whatever i m failing lit big time.
oh and suprise suprise i passed my cheena with a b3! okay that isn t very good but i m glad i passed.

got ice cream from the ice cream man after school. and i WALKED stacey all the way home. okay so it wasn t very far but that s not the point. and she had an ice cream accident rather emergency. wahaha hilarious. took a bus to siglap after that to return the overdue merchant of venice. it s overdue for 3 days. just 3days and i had to pay 3bucks. daylight robbery. wanted to go home after that but noooo my maid wasnt home. the one day i wanna go home straight after school she isn't home. wanted to go to the mall but my bag was too heavy and therefore unsuitable for shopping. haha in the end i went to starbucks again! mango frapp (: did my way overdue zuo wen and my math hw and then i left for the bayshore where my maid was.

came home, left for csc and here i am. oh yes i had a huge dinner! mushroom pasta! so much for my diet. but at least it was under the weight watchers category so it shouldn t be THAT bad right?

ca's just ended and it s only about a month to the EOY's. wow time passes by so fast. and soon i would be making many decisions that would either make me or break me. big decisions but i m looking forward till all this is over, when i can finally toss my books into the sky, let my hair down and partay! okay it s too early to dream. i shall go study OR watch win a date with tad hamilton. i think i favour the latter once again (:

tas (:

training :/ HOT

2005-08-16T18:10:00.000-07:00

i m back all sticky and stinky from school training. it was rather hot today. and one of my toe nail is horizontally half way broken. it hurts like crap and the toe nail next to it is on the verge of breaking too. lousy toe nails i have.

the 06' year book photos came in today and i look HORRID. -shudders
i m officially going on a real diet cause i m too chubby and flabby. haha i m considering turning vegan. or maybe a tofu-egg-an. whatever i m going on a diet. and maybe i shall buy the photos as a motivation for me to diet. yes that i shall do (:

i have mountain-tall piles of homework waiting for me to do. not to mention the 2 or 3 weeks overdue zuo wen which i don't plan on doing until tomorrow. LITERATURE test tomorrow.

CONFESS AND LIVE
CONFESS AND LOVE

i hate to say this but i think i m growing fond of shakespeare (:

okay so therefore i leave to take a nice cold shower before i indulge in the sweet romances and melodramatic merchant of venice (:

i feel for a strawberry yoghurt dinner!

ttfn!

tennis!

2005-08-15T22:04:00.000-07:00

just came back from tennis at csc and i m tired, bushed, exhausted, dead beat, knackered and whatever words that have the same meaning as that.

but it was rather fun today, and i admit i was rather slack. after about 45minutes of non-stop rallies with this woman/lady i was totally whacked out. haha then that sec 4 vs guy whose name i still can t seem to remember came and he showed me this video of someone being be-headed. and wait one wasn't enough he had to show me two. omfgoodness it was the grossest most horrifying thing ever. it s taking me great pains to erase the images out of my head. gosh i watched the man from when he was alive till his head was in the hands of the terrorists. omfgoodness.

okay anyway yes other than that i had fun playing tennis today. was a very much needed game (: haha

school was boring and we all stayed back after school for study skills for nothing cause it was the wrong day :/

went to starbucks after that to attempt to study lit but it was far too noisy so i went 2pages and gave up. tried science but i barely made half a page. it was THAT noisy. so i drank up my MANGO FRAPP (: and left

had a really amazing encounter with God, which i am sure wasn't coincidence. and when i expressed my shock i m so sure i heard God laugh. okay call me weird or holy or whatever but although it was such a trival situation, i m still astounded, well in a good way (:

okay so here i am. and should be studying lit or watching the overdue merchant of venice. so i shall leave (:

goodbye

sunday night :/

2005-08-14T23:59:00.000-07:00

i need serious time management skills cause it s 2am and i really should be sleeping. need i explain why?

well a quick run through of today's events. come to think of it there really isn't a need to cause nothing exciting happened and everything's just so routine.

oh just that i slept at 4am last night cracking my brains for a chariskidz game and seriously there really isn t much you can do when it comes to countries. yeah so it turned out rather sucky, as always, as some might be thinking right now. but who cares there s always next time. had training in really good weather again (: came home at 6 and crashed on the bed till 11 30pm. and i had carrot cake for dinner which is the OILIEST and fattest thing you can eat at 11 30pm. was bored so i watched without a paddle (: hilarious show! which reminds me my merchant of venice dvd is due back at video ezy today. oh who cares i need to watch it again so i shall leave it with me for another day or two since it s already overdue. hah!

alrighty then i shall go catch my beauty sleep although i just woke up two hours ago. and maybe just maybe those dreadful eyebags would disappear. tennis at csc tomorrow! (:

good morning singapore (:
haha

i will stand strong in faith.

2005-08-13T23:56:00.000-07:00

just watched the merchant of venice on dvd. beautiful show with so much inner meaning and with feelings overflowing. catch is, it s in original shakespearean language and if not for literature lessons i would have been lost within the first 10minutes. but it was very well captured (:

church was ~~terrible~~ alright and i shall not rant on about how this certain female someone has irritated me so much i was almost convinced this afternoon that i shall never return to church. at least not this church. but my faith in God shall not be shaken, i admit it almost did but it s in trails and tribulations that we grow stronger. so you can talk to the hand cause the person ain't listening

the daddy came to the rescue and picked me up from church at 5 30 and we left for csc where i was supposed to train but they were having a friendly with ssc so i watched a little and decided i needed to shop. and yes retail therapy does heal the inner soul. went to PS and had yoshinoya for the second time this week. shopped around and i got a pretty pink roxy belt (: espirit bag which i finally bought after months of contemplation and socks for a steal at FOX. fairly satisfied but i still want THAT skirt and shirt from hula and co and that espirit top! and the oh so beautiful pink nike dunks! and the list goes on. but what just struck me is what we learned in bs today. to be poor in spirit, which means to be unsatisfied with the earthly joy we find in material products, government paper namely money$, fame so on and so forth. for we should set our focus on God. yeah i should seriously learn to do that judging from the fact that i spend way too excessively and like there s no tomorrow.

and months have gone by when i last said this. but once again i need CHANGE. yes the old dies now and i shall be a new person and as much as people like coughshirleycough can be a thorn in the flesh i shall acknowledge their good intentions which i presume there is one and see not the faults in others as the Lord forgives mine.

alright i shall go plan tomorrow s chariskidz games before people label me failure once again. and after that i shall go watch without a paddle and laugh my lungs out before i punch somebody in the face.

goodbye fellow earthlings

retail therapy!

2005-08-12T23:59:00.000-07:00

okay i m back to blog! it s finally friday! and what am i doing stuck at home? it s been this way for weeks and i m sure it will be for weeks to come. oh well

i need to shop! i need to buy stuff! i feel extremely deprived of shopping. i need retail therapy :/ i have a list as long as erm santa claus's list (okay fine lousy comparison) and in it consists of lots of stationery and new clothes. would anyone like to sponsor me and help satisfy my extravagent and very excessive spending needs rather desires. i m thinking of going shopping alone, that s the best and should be the only way to shop! (:

school was fine. and d&t has got me working those arm muscles! well after school nattawadee,michelle and i piled into michelle's dad's car and we headed to her house to discuss the design of the tennis tee and everything else along those lines. and after a million or so sketches we finally settled on one and even designed a logo and thought of a nice catch phrase thingy. so yes now we just need to show the designs to the team, settle on the colour of the shirt, shirt type and mission accomplish! we even designed a visor, but if we actually go along and make it would be another story.

i need to play tennis so bad! i have the csc grading test thing on sunday! and i only got back training yesterday! how wrong can all this get. don t answer that

okay i ve got mountains of homework awaiting me. i can endure all this for just a couple more months! my life can wait for me, after all i have gone without it for so long already, what s another few more months.

oh well i m off. it s back to math. why couldn t we all just stay cave men :/

goodbye

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as i am
Empty handed but alive in Your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever i am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

gloomy but good (:

2005-08-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

okay i m gonna make an attempt to try to make this post short cause i m in the midst of the O.C. need i say more?

well i conclude that God really answers prayers (: just in one day He answered so many of mine!

anyway my results so far for the ca's are fairly satisfactory but i m sure after today's chinese test that it wouldn t be as fine and good. oh who cares, since when does anyone do well for chinese.

training was oh so fine today. well almost. the sky was dark and gloomy and many times it threatened to rain. at first we gave up hope of having training today cause it was drizzling at school but wow it didn t (: it was windy but i m not complaining. hey anything is better than further tanning in the sun. when you ve reached my skin tone you ve gone way beyond the "beautiful tan" mark and seriously you do not want to be in the sun. anyway we played quite a bit of matches today. and without the sec one s, there was so much more games we could play. played three different doubles game of six with nicole. and one of the matches we had to play against this primary 5 duo who play in the under 12 spex touranements. and how very discouraging that they won. VERY discouraging.

anyway i m going back to the O.C and ~~adam brody~~

goodbye(:

rain down!

2005-08-10T11:59:00.000-07:00

okay this is just about the wrongest time to blog. judging that it s almost 12 and i have barely started on my chinese which i have a test on tomorrow. i just keep getting so distracted these days. it s getting rather frustrating that i can't seem to focus on any one thing for more than 10minutes. drats

well i did virtually nothing today. reason being that i woke up at a fairly unearthly hour of 3 30pm. yes my old sleeping habits are coming back to me again. and i feel sick. i m coming on to something, i can just feel it. and with the arrival of the "new" dog, i constantly feel like there is fur stuck in my nose. and the dog is this giant furball constantly shedding its fur EVERYWHERE and i can't seem to stop sneezing and now my throat is burning up. perfect timing to get sick huh. tsk

and my room is in such a mess! i have books scattered just about everywhere and everything seems to be stacked on top of something and whenever i need something it feels like i m playing a game of jenga. okay i should stop whinging and get back to the books.

oh yes the final episode of manhunt was fab (: and john johnson won! okay i feel so satisfied with the result! oh whatever

alright i really should go now. i just have a feeling i m gonna fail my cheena :/ wish me luck and cross your fingers for me (:

tata

Rain down all around the world we're singing
Rain down can you hear the earth is singing
Rain down my heart is dry but still I'm singing
Rain down rain it down on me !

overnight prayer meet

2005-08-09T23:59:00.000-07:00

okay i m back from the overnight prayer meet, which wasn t as torturous as i expected it to be. i actually managed to keep awake till 0545 before dozing off for 15minutes. and weirdly, i managed to listen to what pastor david was saying and all that. and personally this overnight prayer meet has been rather insightful and it really got me thinking about a lot of things, and it has put things into perspective. and now i understand TRANSFORMATION. so yes i m glad i went. though i had frequent pangs of hunger after 0530 and ended up with gastric which only went away after i got home. and gosh if there were too many opm s i would probably die of diabetis. ate too many sweets throughout the night. oh well

reached home at 8am and slept till 5 30pm?! gosh how pig-ish. anyway its 0032 and i haven t done my homework or anything productive this holiday so i shall get started.

i feel fat :/

goodbye(:

our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
with wisdom, power and love
our God is an awesome God!

fop day 3!

2005-08-07T12:38:00.000-07:00

okay firstly,

HAPPY 14th STICKY TAPE! (:

it s 12 and i m home. why? cause i m tired, lazy and would be very painfully scolded by the motherness if i step out of the house anything before 7 ,when i leave for the overnight prayer meet. don't even need to bother asking her. so i missed out on the fun at TM with sticky and the rest. and i couldn't go to town with vicki or PS with lulu or TM again with tara. oh whatever :(

however,it s been one helluva weekend! festival of praise day 3 was THE best! and going with the churchies just made it all the more fun! the other two days are incomparable to the last day and i had a blast! we screamed our lungs out and jumped till we were breathless! oh and i conclude i can t jump on the spot! i kept bumping into every single thing around me. oh well

oh yes last night's fop left me so tired that i could barely keep awake in school today. well i guess i did have a fair bit of fun singing and everything with my friends (:

okay i m going to sleep till 6 or something! then i ll be off to the overnight prayer meet which i bet will end at 7 am instead of the stipulated time of 6am. so there

oh and guess what, i ve been eating prata 4days in a row already! plus niu and i said that we would eat prata tmr morning for breakfast?!

oh gosh. okay i m off goodbye (:

Jesus you are the saviour of my soul!

new dog in the house!

2005-08-06T23:59:00.000-07:00

once again fop was great (: had loads of fun!

well when fop ended i went to look for vicki and her school friends. so from the indoor stadium all 4 of us piled into my dad's car and we went searching for PRATA! so we finally found a prata stall at who knows where. after prata my daddy sent all of them home and then i got home to find a dog running out the door when my maid opened it. gosh i was prepared to sit outside forever or something. and after loads of screaming and everything else i finally got used to the dog and she s so lovable! hahaha and friendly and she doesnt bark at all. but i guess its only for now? cause she probably misses her owner or something. but she s 7! and she s a collie and from my research on collies they don t live very long, the average life span of a collie is what 10 years old? yeah so maybe after a week or so the dog goes back to its owner and maybe, just maybe we get a dog of our own? that would be swell! (:
oh yes -pats myself on the back i ve gotten over my dog phobia! i hope

haha its 2 am and i have to wake up in 5hrs. should go to sleep now! (:

tata

festival of praise day ONE!

2005-08-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

i'm back from FOP! it was mighty fun! we sang jumped screamed and everything else! and the presence of God could really be felt (:

oh yes i went with lulu and her church friends. only decided to go at like 4 30? so thank goodness her church friends were already lining up so we had to sneak up the side stairs to her friends cause the ushers were being mean and wouldn t let us through cause our names weren't registered. nonsense. anyway we were the first few to get in and we got pretty good seats. could have been better but i don t know why but we kept moving back. oh well but it was still super fun! hillsong and delirious! okay i should sop gushing about it all.

and my calves hurt from physical yesterday! must be the 300 wait no 370 jumping jacks we did! and the excessive jumping today didn t help much.

and school was tiring and extremely taxing. didnt get much sleep the previous night so i was as good as a walking zombie. thank goodness for mother tongue where i finally managed to sleep for an hour.

okay thats about it i guess. gonna sleep soon! super tired! okay i m off

tata

Tell the world that Jesus lives! Tell the world that, tell the world that!

physical!

2005-08-04T18:46:00.000-07:00

am back from training and i m munching on a muesli bar which i presume is my dinner (: and maybe i ll have a peanut butter sandwhich later, much later!

anyway it rained today AGAIN. so frustrating! of all days it had to rain today! and when it rains on a training day what does it mean? physical. ughh we had the beep test and i think i m rather satisfied with it. was quite sure i would just twist my ankle or faint or sth at level 2 hahaha. oh whatever. and the "best" thing is, the beep test today was just a trail. so we re going to have it again in one or two month's time? just the thought of it makes me sick :/

oh yes we had tennis photo taking today. my gosh we had to wear the tournament skirt which is the skimpiest piece of cloth ever. okay so it isn t that bad, but it just emphasized on my fat thighs! haha okay whatever. there is a lot to be done for the tennis team! we have to design 3 tennis shirts and to re-decorate the ever so coughuglycough tennis board. oh well

okay enough tennis talk i need to go do my dnt and then i m going to SLEEP! well before the OC and one tree hill of course (:

okay goodbye (:

tennis!!

2005-08-03T21:21:00.000-07:00

[edited]
just found out that the beep test trail is tomorrow! oh crapcrapcrap i take back what i said about going for training tomorrow! wonderful, just wonderful :(
[edited/]

okay i just came back from 2 and a half hours of non-stop tennis! (: played 2 doubles and one singles match at csc. and i was seriously way below form today. and my service was crap and i only began to pick up pace at my last match. sheesh. i m so going for training tomorrow!

anyway math ca today was pretty alright (: so far i think most of my answers are right. crossing my fingers and hoping for the best!

oh yes i resoluted yesterday that since i do not have any ca's for the remainder of this week i would have a no-study day and spend the entire afternoon sleeping! which was rather successful cause i slept for 2hours, before i got woken up by a phone call from my mother asking me if i wanted a dog cause her friend was giving it to her? tsk and the dog's 7years old! thats kinda old :/ and she doesnt even know what breed it is! but from the description i presume its either a pomenarian or spitz oh whatever to the spelling of it both. everyone knows i can t spell for nuts.

okay the heater is all warmed up! i m going for a nice long shower before i indulge in MANHUNT!

goodbye

science ca OVER (: math! :/

2005-08-02T21:47:00.000-07:00

okay i m not half as grouchy as i was yesterday (: hey my teeth really hurt then okay! haha

anyway, the science ca today was kinda easy but i m pretty sure i ve got one question wrong already. oh well lets hope its the only question i got wrong. and during geog it suddenly started to pour really heavy! it was so cosy (: too bad couldn t sleep in class cause everyone knows what shekhu will do. haha well was trying to decide if i should go for training today or skip it and study for math or something which in my opinion is way more important than training. so yes i skipped training, and i feel terribly guilty for that. but ellie skipped training too! hah! oh yes i hope we missed the beep test cause i haven t ran long distance in ages. anyway ellie and i went to macs for lunch and then to starbucks to "study" but ended up talking for over an hour. and i only got 3math sums done then. tsk

which reminds me i have to get back to the books. graphs is giving me a headache! math ca tomorrow! wish me luck!

i suck at math, so bad :/

sci ca. teeth hurt. shaaat

2005-08-01T21:24:00.000-07:00

i m feeling extremely irritated now! not at anyone but cause my teeth hurt like hell! i can't think straight or concentrate on science and my science ca is tomorrow. damn the dentist

ughh! geog ca was alright i guess. went to kcp for lunch with tara after school. food there is so cheap and good. fattening!

okay i m going back to science or to find ways to soothe the excruciating pain in my mouth before i punch somebody. UGHH

america's next top model after (:

study!!!

2005-07-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

alright i ve gotta make this snappy, short and sweet. why? cause i have a geog test, wait to make it sound more important, geog ca on monday! which technically is tomorrow cause its 12am sharp now.

i seriously have to learn to remember to switch off the lights before i fall asleep and not to read on the bed. fell asleep AGAIN with the lights and everything on while i supposedly took a break from geog, which really wasn t neccessary cause i only started reading the book for ten minutes before i fell asleep. woke up at 0617 ,to be exact, thankfully with everything switched off. thanks to either my brother or maid. well anyway i wanted to stay awake to study geog or something but i decided, NAH. cause i ll probably fall asleep during tuition or something. so i went back to sleep and woke up at 12 to the sound of the rain hitting against the zinc roofs opposite. rain was so heavy it was probably impossible to walk to the tuition centre. in the end, i made up my mind just 10minutes before tuition started to go. and i made it there just 5minutes late! someone tell me how much i rock! hahaha

fellowship was alright. the video was a little errrr. haha okay fine it wasnt that bad. dinner with evonne and elizabeth at sing post food court. haha after dinner i went to coffebean to supposedly study for geog but i got very distracted by everything. haha oh whatever.

okay better go study or sleep now. church tomorrow! doing praise support singing for the second time this month :/

and come to think of it, out of this two days i probably only spent one solid hour on geog! ughh! i m so going to fail my first geog test this year! then again everything is just common sense. tsk what a waste of time

okay i m off

goodbye (:

getting organized. it aint easy

2005-07-29T22:37:00.000-07:00

okay forget i said anything. tsk

all better now (: okay i shall go eat my dinner and grow fat now at 10 36pm. so much for losing weight.

study!

2005-07-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

i officially have the shortest attention span ever! am supposed to study for a mini chinese test tmr but no i did two chapters and ended up watching tv and doing everything else but study :/

school was boring. science was a disaster! see that s the result of not paying attention in class, now i don't understand anything! then again i have nothing to say about a teacher who prounounces protractor as projector. and there was the inevitable struggle to keep awake which was nearly impossible if not for the ton of work hurled at me during chinese. everything seems so chinese these days. okay that didn t make any sense

training was erm alright i suppose. played singles with nattawadde and i won her 6-1! haha i seem to be on a 6-1 winning streak, but i have no problem with that ((: hahaha oh and the whole tennis centre was infested with bees! and the courts had like dead bees scattered all about and when the wind blew some would be blowed along with the wind and they had this crunchy sound! and everyone kept stepping on the bees! oh and i m never leaving an open can of drink out on the table anymore! there was a bee in my h2o! thank goodness i checked. haha

oh one tree hill is on! and i need to at least read through my shou ce for that dreaded mini test!

goodbye(:

fruitful day. almost

2005-07-27T22:02:00.000-07:00

i think today was quite well spent (: finally

well today was the last day of the exchange programme for the cai xiang middle school students. who would have ever guessed that in just two days all of us have grown so attached to them. and as they boarded the bus all 2/3 and 2/6-ers couldn t help but exclaim how much we missed them already. i guessed personally i ve gotten so used to speaking in chinese and making futile attempts to ensure my buddy wasn't bored and also constantly updating him of what lesson was next as i struggled to answer his weird questions like why the "hei zai" (fat black woman.tsk) has eyebags :/ oh well it was one memorable experience (:

came home straight after school and went to starbucks to study. and i think i m one dangerous pedestrain. i almost got knocked down by a car and a lorry in less than 1minute on the two different roads just outside my house and another car at the road at siglap. all in just a mere half an hour.

well after studying, which wasn't for long cause i kept getting distracted. but i did study more than i do at home. well a little more. okay back to my point, after studying i was going to take the bus home but in the distant i saw 32 turn and disappear around the bend and 32 takes forever to come so i decided to walk home. was a 20minute or so walk and i looked like a loon hugging my sling bag as i trotted home. lousy OP slippers gave me blisters again! anyway i did get home faster than the bus. SBS -shakes head

anyway the grandmama was at home so we just sat outside to talk and at the same time stuff our faces with ondeh ondeh and the nice custard thing i made (:

then the fatherness and brother came back and we plus the grandmama went to csc. i had my tennis training and they erm went downstairs and snacked on sandwhiches? well tennis was fun! played with the cougholdcough adults. played doubles and i partnered the rather famous michael ching chang cheong oh whatever one of them. and we won 6-1 up! muahaha

okay i said a lot today. tsk i need a shower and then it s MAN HUNT! hahaha ((:

i m off bye (:

strength

2005-07-26T21:56:00.000-07:00

these few days have been so rainy! beautiful weather to sleep but it always rains at the wrong time! oh well

well the cai xiang people finally came today. haha i was talking to tara, whose class also had the exchange students, and we realised that they do the same things! like hum in class and the way they sleep? yes they all slept during class :/ by the last period which was MT they were all sleeping. and to think they would keep awake during the one lesson they actually understood. can't blame them, in china after every 45mins they have a 10min break? oh and half the time i don t understand a word my buddy says. oh well

well after school we had lunch then we proceeded to the gym and we played double whacko and dog and bone. then from there we adjourned to the carpark outside the chapel and we played entangled which was erm weird cause we couldn't untangle ourselves and when i told this cai xiang guy to squat down he went to turn around. and to think i told him in chinese. tsk

okay i need to study or something! ca's are next week! ughh

okay tas (:

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going

2005-07-25T23:59:00.000-07:00

okay i shouldn t be blogging now. came online to check my mail but i just couldn t resist the temptation to blog. haha

well went for lunch at bedok macs with tara today. was supposed to go home directly after lunch but nooo silly me went to mention that i felt like playing her ps2. wonderful. so we ran in the rain, and took a bus to her house only to find her ps2 wasn t there :/ in the end we watched the o.c season 2 and i feel so cheated! singapore practically censored out everything! haha

and we were supposed to study after that but we started talking like a lot and then her mum came home and told us there was some ritual downstairs and a man was whipping himself. lao tang? oh whatever. so we being typical singaporeans went to kpo kpo and we were not the only nosey parkers. haha didn t get to see the man whip himself cause we were tired of waiting and only went back to realise we had to wait for the man to get into a trance or something like that.
freaky :/

and then after dinner i did one more math sum and i had to go home. thanks man. haha

okay the cai xiang middle school exchange programme people are coming tomorrow! missing quite a bit of lessons and i get to erm buddy one of them with boon (: haha fun! okay tennis cip tomorrow too! selling really nice stuff for i can't remember what society. but all kcians come support us ((:

hahaha okay i m feeling high again. oh well i m going to catch up on some rest. i see slight eyebags forming under my eyes :/

goodbye (:
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i'll stand strong

2005-07-24T21:30:00.000-07:00

things have been rough. don t wanna scare all of you with my "holiness" as some have put it but i believe it s just another trail, another test God is putting me through. and i don t think i ve been doing very well. someone just flick a finger at me and i ll crumble. oh well

well as the first para suggests i don t think i need to elaborate much about today huh. haven't studied or anything and thank goodness the math ca has been postponed thanks to the exchange students coming and all that.

argh i m so lazy and i feel like an elephant :/ ahh who cares i shall just eat and grow fat and er rot die and dicompose?

yeah whatever i m not making sense anymore. not that i had before. shall just go off now and drown myself in shakespeare or something..

i m so melodramatic

am i losing touch with you Lord?

2005-07-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

on days like this, i feel so much like a bum

well yesterday wasn t much of a day worth mentioning. but to sum it all up it was terrible and nooryati caught me for my pinafore. made me take out the sewings/alterations right there and then. so much for being nice enough to stay back and rehearse the dance for the exchange students who are coming on tuesday? ahh whatever

woke up at 7 today to go to vjc for the tests. the place was overflowing with people and thank goodness nicole de souza went for the test too or i ll probably get lost or something. haha anyway the tests were rather tough. okay so some of you might be thinking DUH. haha okay nevermind. the tests took a total of 2 1/2 hrs excluding collection of papers, breaks, refreshments etc. cabbed home and could only "sit down" for 10mins before rushing off to tuition. killing my brain :/

was feeling dead tired after tuition. fell asleep and decided to not go for bs and fellowship cause i ll probably go there and sleep? so yeah
but i feel ever so guilty for not going cause i was lazy? that s just not a valid reason! ughh

well the one productive thing i did today was finish all my homework ((: oh! and i made this custard whatever dessert thingy! and it s nice! so maybe i m not so much of a cooking idiot as i think i am (: why do i have a feeling i ll be taking that back sometime soon :/

okay i need my sleep! this week went by so fast...

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